The Autobiography Of Riot of the Purple Angel

{Chapter 2: Day 2 in Seoul!}

I woke up to drooling on my pillow the next morning then I turned over to find Hazel and Rebekah were eating their breakfast on the bed next to mine, but they were watching me though and fucking grinning like assholes....just saying! I got up from my bed and walked to the bathroom as I said over my shoulder to them, "The show is over, you asshats!" I heard them burst out laughing after that. "What's so funny?" I asked as I came back into the room with them. That's when Rebekah said with laughter in her voice, "Oh I love you, Tae!" And then Hazel added to that by saying, "Kiss me, Tae!" Dammit I was sleep talking again and I only do it when I like a guy or even dating a guy to be honest. I think this is going too fast, right? What do you mean no? Ah what do you know, huh? NOTHING! Okay, now I'm arguing to tell this story....I'm so sorry about that....really! Anyways we were on our way to the competition. As we were waiting backstage, I was trying to focus, but that was hard because his face kept creeping into my mind. Today we were going to do a medley of some of their solo songs, and first was V's song Singularity, followed by RM's Trivia: Love and J-Hope's Trivia: Just Dance. "Come on, Emma, they called us, " Rebekah said as she waved her hand in front of my face. I guess I spaced out. But I had to go out first since Singularity is my part, anyways when the music started something took over me and I never felt this way when I performed this song before, which is very weird...right? It felt good, but different though until I heard Hazel say, "Em, did you see V couldn't take his eyes off of you when you were performing?" And then Rebekah added. "Yeah he looked like he was so eye fucking you to be honest!" And with that, I walked backstage, smiling. Only to have myself walk into the source of why I'm smiling as I say 'shit' under my breath. "I'm sorry," he says, helping me up off the ground. Why was he sorry, huh? I'm the one who wasn't watching where I was going, so I say, "No, I wasn't watching where I was going...." As soon as I looked at him, I lost all thought. What the fuck is wrong with me, huh? Why am I acting this way? I mentally slapped myself before saying, "I've gotta go....see you around, maybe?" But he still had a hold of my hand, so he pulled me back to him as he said. "Wait, can I have your number?" I just stared at him like he was nuts for a minute before saying, "Why would you want that?" Yeah I know, open mouth and insert foot! He smiled and said, "Well, I thought we could hang out sometime, but if you don't want to, that's fine." I heard him right? He wants to hangout with me Emma Mae Mason, but am I sure I heard him right? So I blurted out by saying, "You wanna hangout with me?" I must sound like so fucking dumb american! He smirked and said, "Yes!" I just nodded as I looked down at my feet but soon we were joined by his bandmates along with my friends, which I swear they have no filter when it comes to any situation, and that includes embarrassing me in front the guy that I like by saying, "Oh Rebekah, look who I've found backstage in a dark corner already?!" And her twin sister plays along by saying, "Is it our heartbroken friend, Emma?" I swear I'm going to kill them but before I could Hazel replied by saying, "Yeah, but I don't think she is heartbroken anymore, my dear sister....oh no and she is with a South Korean dreamboat!" The rest of V's bandmates were laughing at the scene my so-called best friends were making, and I just wanted to find a hole to hide in! That's when I heard V say something to his Hyung's before grabbing my hand dragging me away from my embarrassment, which I was thankful for, so I said. "Thank you for that, but you didn't have to save me, you know?" He gave his boxy smile before he said. "I just wanted to be alone with you a bit longer, Emma." Is he even fucking real right now? Clumsy me must have hit my head and this is all a lovely cruel dream, right? If so, don't wake me up, please?! Okay maybe I should tell you a little piece of something I haven't told anyone, and I mean anyone....um...here we go! Axel did cheat on me....but I kinda understand it now....it's just at the time I didn't want to, if that makes any sense? I told you that Axel was Korean American, right? Well his mother was like any South Korean woman, and she wanted her son to marry a Korean woman but he showed up with me a American....so you see I understand now what I didn't want then. And I also see that I need to keep my distance from Tae even if I don't want to, you know? I gave him a sad little smile before saying, "I think we shouldn't be alone with each other anymore...." There I said it and it broke my heart seeing his smile fade and his eyes filled with hurt as he said. "Why?" But I couldn't tell him that we were doomed from the start because I'm an American, so I turned away from him and I walked away as he called after me. I walked back to where we left everyone, but it seems that my so-called friends have abandoned me again....and I don't know why I still sound so surprised about it? No, I will tell you who was waiting for me though, and that was Jin, Jimin and Jungkook. I tried to walk right by them. I mean I was still a bit embarrassed about it earlier, but Jin stops me by saying, "Hey Emma, wait!" I turned to look at him with the look of unshed tears before saying, "Jin, I'm really not in the mood, so please just leave me alone, okay?" He asked with concern in his eyes by saying, "What's wrong?" I swear the BTS Army is right when they call Jin: 'Eomma'. Anyways I just looked away as I started to leave again as I said. "Whatever you and my friends are planning needs to stop, get it?" He looked confused as he told me "I don't know what you're talking about." I waved him off as I kept walking and I was further away from the performance space. I let my tears finally fall, as I think why is this happening again, huh? And why with my Korean Idol, Kim Taehyung? I just wanted to focus on my dream now, and not love. I cried all the way back to the room and thanked the person who invented waterproof mascara, as well as eyeliner since I'm wearing both(but I always do though), I mean I'm crying my eyes out but my eye makeup is still fab. Okay back on topic I unlocked and opened the door to find the room empty which is good, because I don't want to fight....to be honest I want to go home and never leave Chicago again. I must have fallen asleep because the next thing I remember is my friends coming through the door. They didn't look happy when they saw me....no let me rephrase that they were pissed. Oh great I'm about to get yelled at after the day I've had! But before they could start, I spoke up. "Look guys, I know you're mad, but could you please yell at me later? I'm not in the mood." That seemed to soften them a bit, but not much because Rebekah said. "Emma, you are scaring us because the last time you were like this Axel broke up with you....so help us out here, please?" I knew Hazel was nodding without looking at her, but I just wanted to be left alone with a pint or 2 of cookie dough ice cream, 1 large pepperoni pizza and a 2 liter of diet whatever. "Can we please talk about this later?" I mean god damnit I just want a fucking minute to myself....like fuck! But they weren't going to leave it alone because Hazel said. "No, we are going to talk about this now!" I mean I can't really blame them for wanting to understand why I was acting like this..... Rebekah interrupted my thoughts to say, "The boys asked us out...and that means you too, you know?" I did know but I couldn't face him after what I said so I just said nothing as I just sat on the bed as Hazel said. "Emma, don't do this again....please don't fucking shut us out again....I mean we are in Seoul, South Korea because of you!" She sighed then as she went to change clothes so Rebekah finished for her sister by saying, "We love you, Emma Mae Mason! I'm going to leave you the place we are going to be at with them, so come or not your choice, okay?" I just nodded but I already made up my mind that I wasn't going. So I just watched them get ready to meet with BTS, anyways they were about to leave but I could see in their eyes that they didn't wanna leave me, which made me turn away from them as I heard the door open as Hazel said. "We are leaving now, so if you don't meet us please order room service, okay?" Then I heard the door shut and the breath I was holding slowly came out. I then sat up and grabbed my laptop as I pulled up Youtube to search for two songs for a mash up for tomorrow, so first I looked up the song Save Me by BTS. I always loved that song, but this is the first time that I could actually relate to the song though. The song ended and I was in fucking tears....yes I was fucking sobbing like a dumbass! Now I want to find another one to mash up with 'Save Me', and 'I'm Fine' popped into my head so I searched for it. As I sat listening to the second song I couldn't stop thinking about the guys and my friends, but it was probably too late to join them so I changed and grabbed a jacket. I left the hotel to wander the streets of Seoul and I wandered for 3 hours before returning to the hotel. "Where have you been?" Both of my friends asked when I opened the door. I closed the door behind me before saying, "It was stuffy in here so I went for a walk, why?" Hazel said. "Well, you weren't here when we came back so we were worried," I sighed as I removed my jacket before I said. "Well as you can see I'm fine, so how was your night?" I know I changed the subject away from me. "Oh no you're not, you are not changing the subject," Rebekah said. I looked at her shocked before saying, "No, I wasn't but I did find two BTS songs for the mashup though!" They just looked at me straight faced with their hands on their hips. I just threw my hands up in the air and said. "What do you want me to say, huh? I rejected Taehyung yesterday, happy now?" And before they could speak I said. "I'm tired so I'm going to bed, okay? I'll tell you about the song choices when we wake up later" Then after that I walked to my bed and got in it to sleep, as well as ignoring my two besties until later. As I thought to myself I'll probably see him tomorrow I drifted off to sleep where Tae was waiting for me.....You know like those catchy tunes you hear on the radio....yeah that is what dream Tae is to me right now. "Can you please tell me what's wrong, Em?" Tae asked. We were in a hotel room alone, he was sitting on one bed and I was sitting on the other. God he was so beautiful it was blinding so I looked at my hands before answering him with a question of my own. "Why are you here, Tae?" And he lifted my chin before saying, "I want to be with you, but I also want to know why you told me what you did." I got off the bed and turned away from him before saying, "Find someone else okay, I'm not good for you, Tae." He asked. "Will you let me decide what's good for me, please?" Okay, why am I fighting with dream Tae anyway? I need to wake up before I'm late so I just blurted out. "I'm American and you are Korean....so we are not going to work as much as I want to! Please stop torturing me, okay?" And that's when I woke up. I sat up, ran my fingers through my hair as I thought, why can't I tell him that? I was deep in thought when Hazel said. "It's about time you woke up because you've been yapping for about an hour, you know? Anyways what are the two songs that we are going to mashup today?" At first, I looked at her dumbfounded. Was I talking in my sleep? I just shook it off, I didn't have time to think about this right now. I got up to get dressed as I said. "Save Me and I'm Fine, so?" I was getting my jeans on when she said. "I love it and so will the boys!" Yeah, BTS has taken a liking to us. I mean they have been to all our performances. And I just rolled my eyes. Since when did we care about that and was I getting annoyed by them liking us over everybody else? Is it because I hurt Taehyung yesterday? Probably.... "look, we don't need to worry about who is there, we just need to worry about winning, " I snapped. Hazel looked at me with a worried look on her face because calling Rebekah, who was in the bathroom, by saying, "I think Emma needs her Hazelnut Cap...um...on our way to the performance hall." Yeah like caffeine is going to make shit any better though, but fuck it let them do it. Once we got our coffee, we headed to the venue. I must say this Hazelnut Cap was very delicious. I mean better than in America. After we got to the venue I went right to hair and make-up before I got distracted by him. I mentally rolled my eyes, crossing my arms and asked, "What do you want?" He looked taken back by my hostile tone, but then he said. "I want to date you, Emma....." Yeah he says that now, but it won't last and I don't think I could take this heartbreak, you know? So I said to him, "You'll get over it and find yourself a nice Korean girl, Tae." I watched him look defeated, as I became jealous of the non existing Korean girl....I know I don't make any sense but I never do though. But suddenly I was pulled out of the hair/make-up chair, and into his warm embrace as he said. "I won't get over you and that means I won't be able to find that Korean girl, because my heart belongs to an American." I looked up at him in shock but before I could say anything he spoke again by saying, "Saranghae, Emma." And then he leaned down to claim my lips with his. His lips were so soft and smooth against mine....Oh did I forget to say I was kissing him back? Yeah we were making out in hair & make-up, but Tae pulled away first as he said. "Emma, gwaenchanh-a?" I just nodded before saying, "I purple you too, Taehyung." He gave me his boxy smile before kissing my forehead and saying, "I gotta go, but good luck, gyeoul gom!" I smiled back before he let me go. I was on cloud 9 after that I mean I couldn't tell you if we nailed the performance, but at this moment I don't care I'm in love again with my Kpop idol, Kim Taehyung.......