Even if it wasn't meant to last a lifetime doesn't mean it wasn't meant to be

Chapter 1

Kim Rok Soo was packing his things.

He was leaving and he knew that this would happen. People always left, or made him leave, and Lee Soo Hyuk was no different.

He should have guessed this would happen, why he got attached to him he didn't know. He really should have known better than to get so close to someone. Once he got close to people they never really wanted to stay.

God, he wanted to scream or maybe cry, preferably both in a private excluded space where no one would bother him.

Not now though, Lee soo hyuk had tried hard to be nice about it, the breakup he means, and it was Kim Rok Soo's own choice to move out. He didn't want to make him feel worse than he already did.

It would be too awkward to keep living with his ex-boyfriend and his best friend who just so happened to be dating said ex.

He threw his clothes into a small cardboard box and taped it shut, lifting it up off the ground and on top of the growing pile of boxes near the apartment's entrance.

(It wasn't home, not anymore, no matter how much it had felt like it.)

"My car is in the front so if you could just drop the boxes at the front then I'll be on my way," Kim Rok Soo said to the two men in the room as one of them placed a box next to the pile.

Choi Jung Soo quickly opened the door for him as Kim Rok Soo walked past with a box, car keys sitting on top and acknowledged him with a nod, striding into the elevator with a sigh.

Once the elevator doors closed gently behind him and he clicked the G, lighting the button in orange light. He let out an exasperated sigh of relief and slid down to the floor, covering his face with his hands in exasperation.

He was tired. So tired.

He sighed and shut his eyes tight, tears pricking his eyes. A tight choking feeling creeping up from behind his throat.

He could stay here, if only for a moment, getting lost in his thoughts, letting the time pass by with each floor as the clock.

The elevator doors began to open with an 'Dunun' and he quickly picked himself up, grabbing the box with one arm and the keys in the other and ran out. Fresh air would be best for him, and the faster he got into his car the faster he could be on his way to his new apartment, away from it all.

' Once I get to the apartment I think I'll just pass out on the couch for an hour, too tired to unpack properly yet.'

The car clicked loudly as he unlocked it, (why was it so loud, why was everything so loud, was it this loud before?) and he slammed the door even louder behind him.

Was he so petty that he slammed it on purpose?

He needed to get a hold of himself, there was no point in being so childish and throwing a tantrum over something as small as this.

He pushed the key into the ignition and began to drive out of the small parking lot. It was weird to think this would probably be the last time he'd ever park in this spot, in this parking lot as a whole, really.

It was weird to think that despite all his beliefs and dreams that he'd never really leave this place alone, but regardless of what he thought he was leaving, and feeling more alone then he ever had.

it was easier to pretend he never had any hopes or dreams to begin with.

He slowly pulled into the front driveway of the apartment and got out of the car, nodding in greeting at the two men standing there with boxes surrounding them,