He giggled as soon as he saw the giant teddy bear in his bed, this must be his brother's surprise, there's nothing change except a picture frame of him graduating high school was there.
"I miss you study table! I miss you chair! I miss you bed!"
He did snow angels on the floor and took of his jacket to settle in the bed. It was 10 times softer than his bed at home.
He hugged the bear and as he's eyes were about to close, someone stood on the doorway.
Kim dropped his guitar and quickly closes the door.
"Hi, Chay..."
He was in disbelief, after four years.
What he always wanted was here.
In front of him, in his bed hugging what he always wanted to give as a graduation gift.
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"I didn't know it was your room now.", Chay sat and awkwardly played with his hands.
He's supposed to be mad, angry furious.
He's already orchestrated in his mind that he's going to slap Kim that he loses his teeth.
Now he's shy and flustered like he was back then.
"It's still yours, I just keep it clean, and I-I do sleep here sometimes. It's calming here, it feels like home-"
Kim stopped and panic seeing how silent Chay is and then went to his closet.
"I'll just grab my shirt and go back to my room. You stay here and rest."
"It must've been easy for you... P'Kim." Chay walks toward Kim and stares at his eyes.
Kim halts and raises his brow as Chay musters the courage to continue.
"I hate you, so much that I refused to play music because it reminds me of you."
"I freaking hate you so much that I avoid going to the places we use to."
"I haven't even," Chay feels his voice crack as his eyes water."eaten vanilla ice cream or chocolate because it was your favorite...,"
Kim's supressing his urge to smile remembering their first date.
",and they don't sell anything else except mint and you know it taste like toothpaste!"
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It was a disaster how Chay threw punches at Kim, it was so weak and Kim's heart is both distraught and in love of Chay's crying face while he recalls every memory they shared.
In the end, he helped Chay up and guided him to the bed and let him cry in his chest while he runs his hands on Chay's back.
Kim misses his baby so much that his heart aches.
Chay calmed down and now they're staring at each other.
"I'm sorry.", both of them laughed and then stared at the celling.
Kim has a lot to say that his therapist's given notebook was filled of songs, notes and scribbles of Chay.
But he wants to let Chay cry and yell at him if that makes him feel better.
He wants to let Chay be comfortable with him, because what he did was horrible.
Kimhan regretted that up to this moment.
"It feels great to get that out of my chest! Woooo!", he stood up and grabbed a marker out of the desk and a box.
"P'Kim... You're a horrible person. But I never regretted loving you... I know you beat yourself up everyday and you don't have to. I hated you."
"But you of all the people should love yourself. If anyone deserves love it's our own.", he smiled and handed a gift to Kim.
It was their guitar pick and their matching bracelets.
Kim never expected anything to make sense. He never did, but when Chay arrived in his life.
He was a miracle.
A force that brought him out of the darkness he thought he would always drown into.
Chay gestured Kim to stretch out his arm and slid the bracelet, then stood and clasped their hands together.
His P'Kim still feels like a warm mug, filled witb chocolate drink cheering his lonely heart on a rainy day.
"I'm still your biggest fan, although I admit I haven't went to your shows and concerts because I was mad and jealous. But now I'm ready to join the fandom of P'Wik again! So please sign my shirt."
"Answer my question first.", Kim snatched away the marker and smirked at Chay who was ever ready for his antics.
"Fine, hit me with your best shot."
"Are you willing to give this asshole a second chance?"
Worriedly, his heartbeat is beating loud in his ribcage.
Everyone at the door was peering, some even biting their nails and seeing them is not helping his nerves calm down!
He then gave a death stare as they all go away from the doorframe.
Chay then smiled and wrote in Kim's shirt.
"Yes. Yes, I can."
Kim excitedly scooped Chay up and kissed him with Chay's hands wrapped in his neck.
They pressed foreheads and chuckled with Kim crying once again.
Chay laughed and kissed Kim.
"You taste like wine, it's delicious."
Hearing that, Chay smacked Kim's shoulder and rested his chin on the crook of Kim's neck.
"You're red and blushing. So cute..."
Kim whispered as a pillow landed at the back of his head.
They turned around to see everyone clapping and cheering while Kinn and Pete are trying to stop Porsche from throwing lamp at Kim's face.
"It was your idea that they make up!", Pete grabbed hold of Porsche feet who was kicking wildly.
"Kim! I swear to God! You're dead meat! I wanted them to make up! Not fuck each other-", Kinn kissed and carried Porsche away from them, wickedly winking at his brother.
Chay then picked up the lamp and several pillows mentally cursing his brother for ruining the moment.
Vegas threw a packet to Kim and smiled. "Safety first and Merry Christmas, bastard."
"T-Thanks jerk.", Kim's blood rose to his face and he facepalmed realizing that he and Chay just shared a kiss.
"I told you no swearing! Venice can hear you!", Pete apologized and high fived Chay before leaving.
"So what're we gonna do now?", Chay threw a pillow to Kim who was still processing his thoughts.
"Look at fireworks?"
"It's still 11:40, P'Kim."
The air was cold so he made Chay wear his sweatshirt.
He opened Spotify and played " It's You" by Henry and danced holding each other closely and feeling each other's warmth.
"Chay, I love you"
"I'm hungry P'Kim..."
Kim pouted and kissed his world's forehead.
"Kidding! I love you. Always!"
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Fanfiction𝗖𝗢𝗠𝗣𝗟𝗘𝗧𝗘𝗗 After months of no contact, Chay was invited to the Christmas Party at the Mansion, which he was forcibly taken by his brother, leaving him no choice but to face Kim who was possibly still cold and distant as ever to him.
