Yesterday.
.
Prologue.
.
I kept running like something was chasing me. I could not bring myself to accept what has happened. How could everything come to an end in a blink of an eye. How could life change so much in such a short space of time. I found myself running in the sand even though the sand is the hardest thing to run in but right now even it could not hold me back. I just wanted the earth to swallow me and at this moment I knew the sea was the only thing that could swallow me. "Child don't do it." I heard a male voice as I ran into the sea but before I could go further in, I felt a pair of arms grab my waist and pulling me back. "Whatever it is child, this is not the answer." This male voice and I looked up at him only for my eyes to meet an old white man's face, it was like he could see the pain written all over my face but I know he did not understand. "It's all over." I whispered as I slid down and just sat on the sad with the waves hitting my body and that when I cried like a newborn baby when it is hungry. "I'm sorry." This man sat next to me allow the water to mess his clothes up. "Believe me when I say this Child, nothing will ever be worth you losing your life." he said and touched my hand and that's when I cried much harder. I felt like something was sitting on my chest not allowing me to breathe and the fact that the waves kept on hitting me didn't help. It felt like they were also suffocating me. "Child are you okay?" this white man asked but I couldn't answer him now trying to breathe which was proving to be hard. It felt like I was having a heart attack. As much as I wanted to end my miserable life at the moment but death was such a hard thing. "Help!" I heard this man shout as my body totally lost balance and the water covered me and last thing I remember is tasting the awful salted water that got in my mouth.
.
I woke up in this white room and I blinked a couple of times before my eyes adjusted to the light and that's when I took in my surroundings and that's when I saw I was in a very fancy hospital room. While I was trying to remember how the hell I got here that's when this unknown white man walked in with a doctor. *Did I die and was reborn as a white girl?* I moved my hand to my face to check if I was still black and indeed I was still black so I was not reborn. Than what the hell am I doing in a hospital I can't afford. "I'm so happy you are awake." This unknown guy said with a small smile on his face but I was confused. "Who are you?" I asked because I seriously didn't know this man. "Oh yeah, I didn't introduce myself when we met. I'm Craig Forbes." he said and I tried registering him to see where do I know him from but I came out blank. I guess he saw the confusion on my face. "We met on the beach, North Beach, you tried to take your own life and I helped you out." he said and when he said that, everything came back in my head like a huge storm and that's when my heart beat increased rapidly as memories of what even lead me there came flooding back in my mind. The blood, his last words. That when I started sobbing uncontrollable.
.
My name is Thandeka Mbatha. I'm 22 years of age and this is my story.
.
Mmm let begin.
