𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐍 𝐇𝐄 𝐍𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐃𝐄𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐕𝐄𝐒

CHAPTER 39

THIRD PERSON POV

Jungwon was packing his almost-packed bag while crying. After hearing the same news from Jay,

he didn't shout, he didn't push him... just locked himself in the room and cried till his tears dried up. He was feeling so guilty for leaving Sunoo alone for that damn job. But nothing could change... at least that's what he thought.

"Jungwon... please open the door." He heard the same voice that he wanted to avoid the most. He can't deny the fact that in previous days, Jay did attract him, the way he showed his love to him, the way he cared, all the things that led his heart to flutter at the thought of accepting his proposal.. even he started to think about accepting.

But when all the secrets started to come in front of his eyes.. his heart started to push back his thoughts.

After confirming that all of his belongings are packed inside the small bag, he opened the door with the bag hanging on his shoulder.

"W-where are you going?" Jungwon heard him stuttering for the first time in months. But he had to ignore that fact.

"I am going back to Yeongdeungpo-gu ...and here take it." He handed an envelope to Jay, who took that with a heavy heart. having an idea that what possibly that could be.

"I am resigning from the job. I will leave both apartments as soon as I go back there. Besides all the things... Thanks for supporting me. Kindly don't try to stop me or chase me if you actually care about me." Jungwon said trying to sound stern but couldn't as he was sniffing. He looked up at Jay with teary eyes and smiled.

"I won't stop you. I-I don't have the right to do so. Yet my feelings are true for you and will remain the samne until you return to me. You are always welcome as I am never ever gonna let your place be filled by someone else." Jay smiled while Jungwon was still looking deeply into his eyes.

"I just wish... that one day you come back... to me." A sadness-filled voice was enough to make Jungwon cry more but he controlled himself.

I don't love him.. then why i am feeling like that? What is this feeling?I can't love the person who is the brother of a murderer... murderer of my Sunoo. No.. don't let him see your this side Jungwon.

He scolded himself for falling on the other's words. He quickly wiped his tears harshly with his sleeves and gave his former boss a glare.

"I wish.. we never see each other again..." With that, he slightly bumped into Jay's shoulder as he was on his way... and stomped out of the mansion.

Jay took big steps behind him but stopped at the main door, watching the retreating back of the other. His eyes couldn't wait for enough and soon started to flow the tears, that were held for so long.

Sunghoon was watching him from a little distance and he could see the love his Hyung was holding for the boy. He was feeling more guilty.. not for ruining his own love but for ruining his brother's life as well

How Can I Forgive myself?

Guilt was eating him up but thanks to his caring Hyungs, who never left him alone. He saw Jay coming back with heavy steps, hand strongly clutching the envelope, trying to get out his frustration on that paper.

"I am sorry... I ruined your life too... I am really Sorry Hyung." He said with an ashamed look. Jay just smiled and hugged him tightly, it's like he wanted to do so... well he actually wanted to do So to comfort his throbbing heart.

"No... it's ok. It's our fate Sunghoon. We used to hurt people and that's the thing coming back to us... but in a more painful way." He mumbled while hugging his brother who just nodded slightly.