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CHAPTER FIVE what are we?
" Y/N? YOU GOOD ? "
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❝HELLO MOTHER.❞you greeted as you walked into the room, "daughter." your mom said, watching you walk in with miles's hand in your hand.
"you finally have a boyfriend?" your mom asked and you just looked down because you couldn't say that he was your boyfriend because he didn't ask you.
"it's not about that, what are you doing here?" you asked, letting go of his hand. miles looked down at his hand that didn't have your hand with it, he just walked into the living room and the rest did the same while you stood in the kitchen with your mother.
she knew, you knew that lucas wasn't going to talk to mom but her focus wasn't on him. "i'm not going back to chicago." you said bluntly, sending her aback, "luckily for you, you don't have a choice." she said with a smile.
tears fell from your eyes as you looked into her eyes without blinking. "you know you've always been a bitch," you said and everyone in the living room looked at you and your mom's shocked face.
"every time you sense me being a little happy, you take that shit anyway from me because if it's not your word it's no one's." you said, tears streaming down your face but still your eyes haven't closed once.
"you're like a gun in my mouth every time i smile you shoot," you said before walking closer to her with your fingers in a shape of a gun.
"and you continue to shoot until i'm in your house again so you can kill me over and over then when i say something about it you look at me like a mental patient so you send me away." you walked even closer to her until she was backed up on a wall.
in your eyes was so much pain and rage but there was that small part of you that wanted to just talk it out with your mom.
your mom tried to keep tough but you could see right through her, "your son has quit the only job ever had so now his job is selling dope on the fucking streets and where were you?" you asked.
"seeing a club getting fucked by some junkie on drugs! who probably got it from lucas, you suck as a mom." you said and walked to your room, nora and miles followed behind you.
"y/n? you good?" miles asked as he rubbed your shoulder, you were sobbing but when you looked at him you immediately smiled. "i'm great! i got a lot of shit off my chest and i'm still not done!" you stood up with a bigger smile.
nora ran out when she heard you say that you weren't done with getting the shit off your chest. "you!" you pointed to miles as he looked at you with a scared look, "what are we? we went on a date, we held hands and not only that we kissed!" you yelled in a whisper.
"y/n i can't be in a relationship right now after jasmine, i can't do that." miles said and you wanted to punch him in the face because why would he lead you on like this just to hurt you at the end?
your heart was breaking so you grabbed your jacket and walked out of the dormitory and walked into town. you stopped at this art gallery as you looked at the paintings, you walked into this one room where the whole room looked like that one moonlight painting even the floor look like it.
the room was covered in blue lights, you looked around to see no one was there so you sat on the ground and started sobbing again but this time you weren't smiling.
the room's walls started moving, and you looked up at the moving stars. "stars, beautiful right?" you turned around to see gwen stacy, "yeah." you said and wiped your tears, gwen sat next to you and rubbed your back.
"wanna talk about it?" she spoke and you just looked at her, "yeah sure why not?" you spoke.
"i want to make everything stop." you said and gwen nodded as she smiled. "everything has stopped, you just need to open your eyes to see." gwen said before looking back at the moving stars.
BACK AT THE DORMS, nora was sleeping on the couch and so was lucas. you hate to admit it but lucas and nora were the cutest thing ever and you just wanted her to get over hobie, your mom was nowhere to be seen so you walked to the counter to see a note left by her.
dear y/n,
you're were right and you've always been, i am so sorry.
it was only eleven words and it said everything that you wanted to hear, you walked to your room and opened the door to see that miles were gone but left you your favorite food from the place, where you guys went on your first "date" together.
it hurts to know that wasn't real, you were now in the bathtub and laid down in the water with your hair.
you were even hurt about what happened with your mother or nora and lucas, you were more hurt that miles didn't have that connection to you like you thought he did.
you didn't want to cry anymore, you were tired of crying about shit but not crying led to drinking so you stopped crying and started drinking. you hated it though because you promised that you wouldn't let a man push you here but you broke your trust.
you jumped up and started panting loudly, you tried to catch your breath as you looked around. you let the water out and wrapped yourself in a towel, you walked to your bed and sat there with tears in your eyes.
nora walked into your room and just hugged you because nora knew that you didn't want to talk you just needed a hug, you immediately hugged back as you quietly sobbed.
