Him....

Will it forever be a secret?  Will it forever be a mystery? Will the truth ever come out? When will I ever be free again? How long must I wait for him to come back?

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My name is Sage Park or Park Taejun , I'm 21 years old, I'm from Daegu South Korea and I'm a 2nd year student at the Daegu University , I am currently doing my degree in  Education. I've always wanted to be a teacher ever since I was really young, but I've recently been thinking about changing my major to sound engineering and music production because I feel like I'm more passionate about producing music more than becoming a teacher, and I know I'm already about to end my second year of university but I don't want any regrets later  on in the near or far future.

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"Mom...?" Where is she? "Mom...? Where are you? I'm about to leave my class start soon and i have to leave in the next 5 minutes or I'll be late" Seriously Where is she? I make my way over to our open plan dinning room to grab my car keys just to fine my mom sleeping in our living room on one of our sofa's with a book in her hand....she must've been read dad's new book, I haven't read or seen it yet but I heard Mom saying something about him coming out with a new release, and judging by the tiny brown cardboard delivery box sitting next to her feet she must've recently gotten it.
So you see here's the thing I'm a ONSB, one night stand baby, and I can't say that I don't know who my father is because I do I just don't know him, I never had really cared much about him plus mom didn't really care either, well that's what she says. My dad and I don't really have a relationship yes he never forgets to wish me a happy birthday, he pays for my tuition, which I've told him not to but he insisted so, my mom and dad had tried to have a relationship for the sake of having me but they just didn't work out, it was a mutual break or "healthy break up" as some say.

I think mom might miss him but she'll never admit to it all because dad has a new family and like I said we retain a healthy relationship and dad's "new wife" is a bitch if I do say so myself, she and my mom does not get along but that's all on her because she's a jealous ho*.

With the new book in her hand I carefully take it out and slide it onto the small cream coloured coffee table, I wrote on a piece of sticky note saying I'd already left for classes and that breakfast is in the oven, after I've left I drop by the convenience store to grab a banana milk for the ride to campus. As I reach campus I park my car on my usual spot, as I make my way to my first class I bumped into someone knocking over everything in my hands including my phone which is now broken thanks to my clumsiness "ughhh seriously I can't anymore this is going to be a long day....ahh shi..  my phone not my phone..ugh.." "omg I'm sorry I wasn't watching where I was going I was lost and I was trying to find my way around this place... are you okay?.... is you're phone okay...?" I look up to see who had just walked right into me and has caused me to be late for class only to see a gorgeous man that looks like he belongs on some kind of Calvin klein underwear ad are something "uhh no no it's okay I'm okay my phone though is not but it's fine I was due an update anyway" which was a lie because I've just got this phone "are you sure I mean it looks pretty bad... I feel bad I'm sorry again I should have looked where I was going" "no seriously it's okay I should've watched where I was walk as well so I mean we're technically both in the wrong here... it's cool it's chill and I'm sorry I'm rambling but seriously though its okay...uh I have to go I'm really late for my morning class" "yeah no again I'm sorry I'm just so lost this my first time here soo..." grabing my books and placing them back into my bag " Where are you going I'm sure I can help you" " it's okay you're late for your class I'm sure I can find my way around " i catch myself smiling at the way he looks soo confused I mentally smack myself to ride me from my thoughts "yeah it's totally fine where are you head" "uhm the library actually I'm meeting someone there" " ohh okay great I'm heading in that direction if you want to join me" "okay cool sure thanks"

As we walk together there's a silence that has a weird feeling not sure what but just something seems off " so do you go here I haven't seen you a round here before...?" Not that I know know everyone here but just to start some conversation "uhh no actually I'm not I'm just visiting someone I'm actually from Seoul" oh okay someone help me this man has dimples "oh okay cool... soo if you're not a student here and you're from Seoul I'm guessing you're......" "I'm what..?" Oh gosh that smirk is doing something "uhm where do you go to college then?" Am I being nosey , "I not a student anywhere actually" "oh so what do you do for a living...?" He laughs  "I'm sorry am I being nosey? I talk alot you can just tell me to shut it actually I haven't asked you for your name I'm Park Taejun" gosh I could listen to him laugh the whole day "no it's okay I don't mind *laughs again * I'm Christopher or chris for short" "well it was nice meeting you Chris but this is where we split the library is that building over there ...I'll see you around..hopefully" before he could respond I had already left.