Just Enough

Chapter 2 : I'm Tired

...and then I hear someone shout my surname and the only person who calls me that is my only friend Jessica Hae-Won "Dae-Hwan!!!" Oh, Lord, save me. "hi Jessi," I said with a small smile "ooh who's the addition to the table?" she asked playfully " This is um..." I silently freaked out cause I didn't know his name " Warren De la Mora from Iva's art class " Oh wow it's been a while since I heard my first name cause at home I'm just called Myeong but hearing my normal name is nice for a change I guess... " Dae dae are you still there?" Jessica said "Huh?! oh yeah I'm still here, what were you saying?" I said when snapped back to reality " As I was saying someone's throwing a huge party and even People from the next school are coming, so we should definitely go." a party, well that's nice I'm not sure I want to go though my social battery is very LOW as of this morning when I took my precious time to imagine my delulu butt fighting but for her sake "Fine we can go." "oh thank you so much Dae dae".

I carefully shut the door because I didn't want my mother to hear me come in, it's not like she's abusive or anything but she's still not exactly the best mother. My siblings should be sleeping by now so I have nothing to worry about at all. " Iva" my little sister said oh Lord no please tell me my mother didn't hear that "oh Iva you're back from school " my mum said once she got out of the kitchen. Lord, did I do something to provoke you if I did I'm very sorry "yeah hi mum" I awkwardly replied saying a silent prayer that she doesn't yell at me or say something to ruin my already drained but happy day "oh everything's fine. Zelene's mum our next door neighbour came over today and she said Zelene is going for medicine and she's doing science in school and she's your age she said they were shocked Zelene was so smart because she's only 13 in the eleventh grade(SS2) an-""Yes mum I know that I'm also in the eleventh grade(SS2) and I'm also 13 she's only older by a few months" I interrupted her "oh yes I know but she's doing science and she's going for medicine and she's also top of her class and I'm still happy for you that You did what you wanted to do and chose Law I'm glad that we didn't influence you to go toward science and you chose art all on your own" "ok mum I'm going to go to my room upstairs " ok go have a shower and come back downstairs for your late lunch" (A/N: ok so why I called it late lunch is because I normally come back by 3:00pm to 4:00pm from school depending on the day and I still eat at home even though I've had lunch in school ) "ok mum" I replied with a strained smile. I finally got upstairs, had a shower and I'm currently laying down on my bed and reading a wattpad story while listening to Unforgiven by LE SSERAFIM. I absolutely love reading stories they're like the portal to another world and best of all you get to live in another person's reality and your own bad life, sometimes I think I'm going to be lonely forever because my standards are probably higher than the Tallest building in the world; I think it's the Burj Khalifa but anyways why I say that is because my standards are literally Kpop Idols, Book characters and Anime men. I'm bored and I have nothing to do so why not just pick an outfit for the party on Friday. After hours of searching through my wardrobe I finally picked and outfit. The outfit I picked was simple and my style, It consisted of a black and white striped long sleeve undershirt or whatever it's called with a black anime shirt which had some Japanese writings by the side with a short half checkered half plaid skirt and a net hose and some combat boots. It was a pretty neat outfit if I do say so myself. 'The fit is ugly. Like why can't you pick something better ' 'it'll make you look fat change it ' 'You say it like she's not fat.' ' she is very fat I'm sure everyone was staring at her at school today because of how ugly she looked in that dress' 'and I'm sure they think she's a freak too haha—' I carefully made my way towards my bathroom locker throwing it open so I don't have to see myself in the mirror-not like it wasn't cracked already from the amount of times I hit it- grabbing my anxiolytics and antidepressants I wanted to take my SSRIs too but they had finished. No problem, I'll just get some more from the store. Having Undiagnosed mental illnesses isn't good but with some online test's and drugs I'll be fine besides the only reason why I haven't told anyone yet is because of my mum a girl committed suicide (A/N: this actually happened to me irl) in the street next to mine and my mother went on a rant of how stupid it is to have a mental illness and then she actually turned to me and she said I quote unquote her words' I'm so happy none of my children have any mental illness' and I felt so crushed that she had actually talked bad about someone for having depression what about me I have 12- no 13- ugh! I stopped counting after 10... anyways back to what I was doing before that discussion with myself. I need to get some Methylphenidate too for my ADHD. I sigh as I walk out of my room "mum I'm going over to Jessi's" I yelled while walking down the stairs " ok but be back before 8"she yelled back "ok" I said softly and I wasn't even sure she heard me but I bolted out the door being happy to breath fresh air again "whoo"...

hihi snugglebugs, Cuddles reporting for duty, with, drumroll please... another chapter!!!. I didn't post this one for a rather long while because, My mental health is currently crappity, and I couldn't write in that state. Now I am back and Worse than before, but I'll manage. Anyways Don't forget to RED-T. Rest, Eat, Drink water and Take care of yourself. You deserve it bae.