CONTINUING ON LET GO
TW!(eating disorder, bulimia)
PREVIOUSLY
I walked in my room and seen something that changed my life forever.......
And your wondering did it change her life?yes.
Oliva:I felt bad about sleeping with him knowing that I might still love someone else.he was gone all these years since elementary and....I loved him.still do.
I got up from cee's bed and looked beside me and he looked so handsome sleeping like a baby,but I shouldn't have that thought in my mind.
I walked to the bathroom looked in the mirror and said...
"What the fuck am I doing with my life....I'm so stupid.knowing he got my enemy pregnant and now we just had sex.what is wrong with you oliva."
Then I walked out the bathroom and went outside torwards the kitchen.i needed a snack after all of this.
I thought about something that made me realize that I shouldn't be here at all but I don't want to bring it up.
So I went in the fridge and got a couple grapes but it wasn't long before I would start binge eating everything around me.
I ate the grapes and then I stopped eating them once I looked at the cabinet something told me to eat everything inside.
I've been restricting myself so much from a lot of food that I didn't realize that it's unhealthy.
So I went torwards the cabinet and I put my hand on it and stopped when I heard the room door open.
Oakley:Good mornin',guess I slept in then?
Oliva: yeah you did.i was afraid that I couldn't do breakfast without you since I barely know how to cook.
Oakley:you do know how to cook you just dont try
Oliva:whatever you nutcase
So I went in the cabinet and froze....
it was like I went completely out of space
I stared into space when I opened the cabinet knowing I can't control the fact that my eating disorder was coming back.
cee spoke....
"Oliva.....Oliva...Oliva!"
Oliva:yeah!
Oakley:you okay?why are you just staring in the cabinet?what's wrong?
Oliva:nothing I just...
Then I decided to tell him.because I trust him.but should I?.so I told him.
Oliva:I think my eating disorder is coming back.i just want to eat all the time all of a sudden and it just....I try to control it but I can't
Oakley:it's going to be okay,okay?,listen I've never had an eating disorder before but I wanna help you oliva.just trust me if you ever want to eat alot of food try to chew gum or just eat one at a time though you cant control it.okay?.
Oliva:okay....well...could we maybe just get fast food I don't feel like cooking right now and I might cook a lot.
Oakley:yeah sure just let me go get ready.
Then I turned around and swallowed my saliva at the sight of food infront of me.
14 mins later*
