Goodbye

Finally

This moment.

This moment is it.

The moment where I have thrown everything away. Where I have no more regrets. This moment is like I'm sitting on the edge of a cliff after a hurricane with nothing to lose except for my very own life. I know that tomorrow another storm will come to knock me off that cliff, but I will not have to care. I have nothing else left to learn or do, for my mission is complete.

My life is complete.

I am satisfied with all that I've seen and done during this life.

It's sad that my journey must end when it seems like it just began. But I know that if I stay any longer, I will die a violent and sinful life.

I am only left to be confused about one thing.

Why am I crying?

Are these tears of happiness?

Are they tears of fear?

It doesn't matter because I will find out soon.

The tears continue to flow down my cheeks as I grab the knife on the edge of the sink.

I still am crying.

The reason I still do not know.

The knife cutting through me doesn't hurt so

Why?

I scrunched up my face and stopped the tears.

Goodbye.

Finally I could leave.

Goodbye.

Finally.........

A hand landed on my shoulder and pushed me to the ground.

I opened my eyes.

A great bright light shined upon me.

I took a deep breathe and smiled.

I did it.

I no longer have to live in pain.

My smile broke when I heard something.

A heartbeat.

My heartbeat.