I doubt that I could ever love Her.
"You have a lot of Responsibilities, and I can't afford to have you madami akong kaagaw sa oras mo," I said and just smiled at her. I'm aware of my arrogance, but I'm just not able to be with her. I know it may sound selfish, but I believe that being honest about my feelings is the best thing for both of us. It's better to acknowledge this now rather than lead her on and cause more pain in the future.
She just nodded and smiled. I can see the disappointment in her eyes, but I know deep down that she understands. We both deserve to be with someone who can give their whole heart and unfortunately, I'm just not that person for her.
I like her, but it's true that I can't afford to love her; she's too busy at university, Acads, church, with friends, and even with her family. She's so good that I can't even touch her hand for just a handshake without feeling like I'm intruding on her busy life. It's better for both of us to remain friends and support each other from a distance, rather than try to force a romantic relationship that may only end in heartbreak.
I spoke again to say sorry, but she cut me off.
"Don't say sorry; it's true that I have a lot of responsibilities, but I enjoy all of this and I am happy for where I am now... and thank you," she said. Her smile reassured me that she genuinely meant what she said. It was clear that she had found fulfillment in her busy life and didn't want me to feel guilty for not being a part of it romantically. I couldn't help but admire her strength and determination, and I knew that our friendship would continue to be a source of support for both of us.
Tuloy pa rin kami sa pag lalakad mag sasalita na sa ulit sya pero may tumawag sakanya "Secretary Ysian! need ka daw ni Press for revised papers."
"Okay! Papunta na kamo!" Sigaw nya at lumingon sakin na nakangiti sinabing, "See you in class." I waved back at her, returning the smile.
I see her running away; it feels like I'll never see her again, and maybe I am right.
...
Second semester has a lot of work to do and it feels like hindi ko na kakayanin at maibabagsak ko nanaman yung Design 6 ko.
"Clyde pwedeng, palist yung space requirements for city hall?" pabungad sakin ni Iza habang pawis na pawis kasi tinakbo nya yung plates nya from apartment hanggang dito sa school para makapagpass ontime, in the end late sya ng 1 minute so minus five na agad sa plate nya.
"I already send it to you, alam kong mag tatanong ka" I replied. "Thank you! isesend ko nalang yung Space requirements ng Sports Complex as exchange" sabi nya habang hingal na hingal at mukhang hindi nakatulog sa laki ng eyebags. "Go lang" sabi ko at nag lakad na kami papunta sa cafeteria for lunch, Its already 4pm basically breakfast, lunch, and dinner na to.
"I think I want siniggang, kaya lang feeling ko ubos na" Thea said an frown.
"It's already 4pm its feels like sisig nalang meron" Iza.
Dumaating kami sa Cafeteria at sa dami ng engineering na may 6-8 class feeling ko mas sumakit yung ulo ko sa mga sinosolve nila, dapat talaga sa library sila tumatambay.
Habang omoorder kami nakita kong tulala si Iza so after I order tumabi ako sakanya
"Hoy, tulala na a" I said.
"I don't sleep cly"
"Kompleto naman ba yung napass mo?"
"kulang ng right and rear elevation"
"Okay lang yan, Bawi nalang sa City Hall and Sports Complex?"
"Ahm.."
"Let's eat"
Architecture is draining, hindi sya pang mga panganay o pangmahirap kasi ilulubog lang nito ang mga magulang mo sa utang pag hindi ka mayaman at kung mayaman ka at hindi panganay madali lang ang lahat tanggapin.
Panganay ako at saakin naka asa ang mga magulang ko, pero until now hindi ko matanggap na mag dadagdag ako ng isang taon. Matagal pa bago maging Architect 5 years course, 2-year apprentice 6 months for Board exam, iba pa pag bumagsak ka. Pag pumasok ka dapat gusto mo talaga at hindi ka napilitan lang or for clout kasi hindi mo kakayanin yung pressure.
"Clyde, diba si Ysian yun?" napalingon ako sa tinuro si Thea "She look fresh huh?" Iza said. She looked fresh and still stunning kahit saan sya mag punta. Mag kaklase kami sa Design 6 pero online class kami sa design and pag pasahan lang nag plates kami face to face kaya sa online ko lang sya nakikita at hindi ko sya nakakasabay mag pass ng plates, laging a day before passing sya nag papass, I don't know pero sabi ni Josh natrauma daw last year kaya maagang nag papass.
"Ahm"
"Hindi na ba kayo nag uusap?" Thea said.
"Hindi na" Sabi ko.
"Bakit"
"Let's eat," I said. Ayoko magkwento
"Bakit nga?"
"Wala'
"Damot"
"Walang dapat Ikwento and There's no need to talk with her because Midyear class is over," I said and continued eating.
"amp, Damot naman talaga" sabi ni thea
Thea, just shut up and eat," sabi naman ni Iza na walang balak mag kwento about sa nangyari nung summer.
"Okay" sabi ni Thea sabay kumain na lang kami.
Dumating naman si Ashe, and she greeted her, but walang bumati pabalik
"Hello Guys"
Silence
"Never mind, btw, balita ko mataas daw yun score ni Iza sa Pro Pract?" sabi ni Ashe
"Really? Iza said with a smile.
"Yeah, I got a pretty good score," Iza replied confidently. "I studied really hard for that exam."
"Yup. In our test, you, Iza, scored 48 points over 50, and guess who got the perfect score?" she said and grinned at me. No, I'm sure that it's not me.
"It's probably not me," I replied, returning the grin.
"Who?"
"Its Ysian!" bulong nya
Wow, Just wow.
I wasn't shocked, but I never imagined that she would continue to receive perfect grades even though she has many obligations.
It's truly impressive how Si Ysian manages to excel academically while juggling other responsibilities.
Perhaps Josh was right. She is the dark horse.
BINABASA MO ANG
So, This is Summer
RomanceCly is really broken when he sees his grade in engineering; he's failed. but when someone asked him to take it in midyear class, he immediately agreed, and that girl pulled all her confidence to lead those who failed like them to get the signature o...
