REALLY? (HAN JISUNG CENTRIC)

CHAPTER-1

WARNING: MENTION OF BULLYING, SELF HARM AND DRUGS 

YES WE ARE STARTING IN A VERY DEPRESSED WAY 

Han jisung had a very cheerful life, at least till 16 . He had a very lovely family and it was always so happy, he had lots of friends until tragedy crashed upon his family. His parents died in a car accident, if that was not enough his uncle took all property money and left, he is not a adult who can deal with this or sue his uncle, and other family members did not have the time to care. Han is now in the most pathetic situation ever, he was greatful that he had no siblings otherwise it would have been a burden and the pain would have been too much to take.

Han seriously did not have time to mourn or be sad, I mean he had now more sufferings, he moved into a small apartment, part time jobs were very hard to find, he did find some but after paying the school fees the money that was left could only afford rice and oil nothing more. He did not have the time to cry when life was moving without giving him any break, school, job, study and then another day. He did not have time to sleep.

Days in school became hell, everybody got to know about his parents but his friends did not come to comfort at all, why? Well he had become the victim of bullying, those bullies were rich brats nobody wanted to go against them, the bullies chose him because who would care about an orphan, and it was true. Han once complained to the teacher but they did nothing and told him to focus in his study, as if that would solve anything. Right studying would solve nothing...that's what he thought, why does he study rather then sleeping, pays for the fees by working so hard just to get this type of treatment?

Han was actually not doing well and it was so obvious, kids his age had everything, complaining about the smallest things, funny he used to be just like that not so long ago and now nothing is left. But he only wanted his family back, he will keep doing part time jobs but when he goes home after all the hard work he wants to be in the warmth of his family, but all that is waiting for him after getting home was darkness, maybe if he had a sister or a brother he would have had at least a company , a family but there was no one anymore.

Han wanted time, time to feel the pain, to cry without worrying about the jobs, or school, but it was too much to ask for, he was angry on everyone, the teachers , the bullies, he wanted to do something, he wanted some time for himself to just let go. So he decided

He joined a local gang, small one but the neighbours did fear them, he joined so that everybody would fear and just leave him alone, he knows nobody is ever going to comfort him, to show him affection, he did not need anything but a hug and some sweet word even if they were fake or hopeless but how selfish the world is, apparently that was....

....too selfish to ask for.

The gang was not that bad, it actually solved quite few problems, the bullying stopped because those rich parents don't want their kids to hang around a violent person, funny. And the teachers were to scared to say anything against him, which was good han had given up on studying, he simply does not care anymore so when he forgets hw nobody says anything about him. He did get popular in the neighbourhood, they hated them for taking a path like this saying that he will only suffer in his life and gossips and bad mouths about him, its amusing they are so eager to throw dirt on him but when he had lost everything, when he needed someone all they did was pity him but never approached him, and all of a sudden his life is now their business.

Han knows that his parents would have been very disappointed if they had saw their child like this. But he thinks this is what he deserves, a path only pathetic people takes, he blames himself.

All he does by staying in a gang is just attack on other gangs and scream if someone takes action against them, han was still young so they did not engage him into physical fights yet which was considerate enough, but the gang also did not engage into physical fights that much as jail time would just waste their time and people and they still need more people.

So for now jisung does normal stuff, he tries to stay low as much as possible because bullying in gangs is worse then school bullying, he does not care about getting high ranks in the gang actually he just stays hidden. That's more or less his life he does school if he feels like it, do some gang activities and then comes back home to just cry and make him suffer more, he is so tired so exhausted, he is glad now that he can finally cry but he realised now that as soon as he let him give the freedom to be sad he was immediately trapped, trapped in this ocean of regret, guilt, disappointment.... nothing to free him. He feels so disappointed about himself and what he had turned into but.....this is how it should, this what he deserves endless suffering. Next thing he knows there is a blade and blood everywhere on the floor, drugs, sleep, waking up and another day.

He is now 19 and he thinks how long is he going to live because life is seriously not funfor him

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OKAY GUYS SO YOU WON'T BELIEVE BUT MY RESULTS ARE OUT AND IDK HOW BUT I GOT GOLDEN A+ WTF ....I MEAN I AM HAPPY AF BUT IT IS VERY UNEXPECTED FROM ME WHO  CAN ONLY STUDY FOR 3 MINS OKAY 

BUT YES NOW THAT IM GONNA GO TO COLLEGE IT FEELS LIKE DREAM I STILL REMEMBER I WAS ONLY NINE AND NOW IM GOING TO COLLEGE.......OMG

BUT I WILL TRY MY BEST FOR COLLEGE SO YESSSSSS