along the river banks

I agreed ?? pt.2

..I did not agree...so I simply went upstairs flabbergasted and confused at the same time because I didn't have her number or even knew that he was a she . I went to my room ready to close the door when Youra pushed her way through entering without my permission, I didn't say anything because well I was still in shock that I agreed but I didn't.

" I know you are probably wondering what just happened but let me explain-" I cut her off before she could even finish " of-fucking -course I am , first off I don't even know you I just met you now I agreed to fucking marry you? Bitch what the fuck?"

Youra didn't answer instead she clenched her jaws and rolled her eyes." First off do not swear at me , I may have just jumped up and answered but my eomma has been pressing on about how we should get married because of the contract your parents signed along with mines" . I was no fool to not know what contract she was speaking of but I didn't answer because who was she to tell me to not swear at her?

I simply walked to my bathroom and closed the door, took a shower and did my skin care , hair care and said some words of motivation to keep myself somewhat still going . My father's death still affects me to this day knowing fully that I was the cause of it. I found that motivating myself helps me not to slip into isolation and a self-destructive machine. I did some thinking on what was taking place recently and how my mood has been so far I guess it's hectic and I mean I haven't slipped so I'm ok.
Now back to the present , I really didn't agree and I won't, I won't because I won't be able to give my all when I can't even find a fourth of myself much less to be  fully devoted to person . Marriage is something I'm scared of,not commitment  and reason being is simply because i self destruct very often and isolate myself. I wouldn't want to burden Youra with that. Speaking of Youra has she left?
I left my bathroom only to see Youra sitting on my bed crossed legged typing away on her phone chewing what seems to be a piece of gum.

"Took you long enough." She said looking up from her phone . " I thought you would use your senses God gave you and leave seeing as I went to take a shower?" I asked more than stated. Cause who in their right minds just thinks ' hmm she walked out and went into her bathroom for a whole 2 hours, let me just sit here and wait cause she probably wanted to say something else or wanted me here?'

I simply turned around searching for clothes as she didn't answer but just stared right at me." You know that I won't marry you because of a contract right? " I told her." Olivia, It's sudden , let's get to know each other for about a week but I must inform you that the wedding shall happen." Before I could answer she walked out leaving me in my room flabbergasted once again.