1D imagines

Imagine for Rachel

Dearest Niall,

I know you probably looking for me right now and freaking out that I'm not here. It's okay. I'm going somewhere else for awhile. Don't blame yourself please? For me? And don't blame the fans either because mostly all of them are nice. It's just some of the hate I have, I just can't rub it off forever. That's why I'm leaving. I just think it's better for right now. I know you still love me the same and I never will stop loving you and don't you ever forget that I love you!<3

With lots of love,

Rachel<3 Xxxxxxxxxoxoxox

I hated leaving Niall like this but after he went to bed I got on my twitter and saw all the death threats and hate and people telling me to go die I just couldn't take it anymore! I wasn't going to commit suicide, no I'm to smart for that. I always thought if I did that it would just be selfish because I'm ending my own misery but just starting other people's.

I was going to my moms house I had already called ahead to make sure it was okay. When she asked why I just said I don't want to talk about it. I got there and went into my bedroom which is now the guest bedroom since I moved out. Most of my stuff was still there in the closet so I didn't have to worry about packing anything when I left. It will also give him something to remember me by. As for me I brought my favorite bracelet he bought me awhile back and I just love it. It has an infinity symbol with the word love on it and then the rest is silver beads. I also am wearing his favorite t-shirt on me of his. It says luck of the Irish on the front and has the word Horan on the back. I loved it when I first saw it so he let me wear it all the time any time.

It was already 1 am on a Saturday morning so of corse I was up. Mainly on tumblr on my blog where nobody knew it was me the now ex- girlfriend of Niall Horan. Tumblr was my safe place where I could go and have a few laughs without seeing any hate. I also had written a few fan fictions that I had up on there. My most popular one had to be my Larry Stylinson fanfic and I also liked writing that one the most.

"Rachel I know you probably don't want to talk, but please I'll do anything for you. Please princess!" My head snapped up at the Irish voice coming from my doorway. Sure enough he was here coming to talk to me. "I know the hate is horrid that you get and if I could I would take it all away in a heartbeat. But sadly I can't. Now we can delete you twitter and Facebook if you want, I will fully support you all the way with any decision you make. Just know I'll always be there for you through thick and thin." He told me with his voice a husky whisper as he sat on my bed. I honestly loved him to much to let go and that's how I explain my next actions.

I pulled him towards me and kissed him passionately. He only pulled away for a few seconds to tell me he loved me to which I responded 'I love you too'.

After awhile of full on snogging, we got tired and fell asleep in each others arms. Safe and sound.