Waters Fading Horizons

Chapter 3

Landon entered and pulled me in to his arms. We stood there for what felt like forever. Finally i looked up in to his hazel-green eyes. It felt like i had known him for years not days. it felt like i knew him top to bottom but in reality i didn't. he kissed my temple and let me go. i felt a draft of cold air hit me, i needed his warmth but i was too shy to ask for it.I walked into the living room and sat on the loveseat. Landon came and sat next to me. He didn't know it yet and neither did i but our lives were in for a bumpy road. my mother was still missing and i had to find her.I hadn't noticed but a tear has escaped my eyes and was now rolling down my cheek. Landon reached over and wiped my tears away."You shall not shed another tear around me, as long as I can help it any way." He smiled at me and I smiled back, he was perfect but he didn't know my story once he found out he'd leave. With that I had to tell him about my dad, about the man who almost killed me.I looked at him and sighed."Ireland what's wrong?" he asked me concerned"I have to tell you a story, a true story at that. Its about a girl who I'm close to like really close to." I  started. He nodded as if to tell me to continue. "She wasn't even born when it started. He mother got pregnant and he said she wasn't his. He told her mother to get an abortion. He mother said no. So 9 months passed by and she was born. A beautiful baby girl. Years passed and her father was in and out of her life. here one minute and gone the next. She was about 4 when her father stayed in her life for a while but even then it was hell. Her father would... touch her. When she reached 12 he raped her. She's 15 now and he still does it when he wants to come around." I finished the story and let all the built up tears fall. Landon hugged me tight as all my tears came pouring out. "Who is she Ireland and who's the man who hurt her?" he asked in a quiet voice. i looked up at him and began to mumble. "Ireland speak clearly" he said to me."The girl is me and the man is my father." i said in a whisper.

Landons mouth fell open and he let me go. He got off the couch and started to pace. I wrapped myself in a blanket to try and stay warm but it felt like i was surrounded by ice. LIke an iceberg had swallowed me up whole. I looked at Landon and the color in his eyes was lost it was no longer a mix of happy colors it was lost like everything was lost for me.

"Landon talk to me please" i said my voice still a whisper. he turned his head toward me and i could see the tears glistening in his eyes. He was crying. Were they tears of sadness? Tears of sorrow? Tears of anger? I was too scared to ask. "How could some hurt someone so fragial. some one so unique. someone so perfect!! Why just why!!!" He said out loud. I had to do something before it went so far. "Landon come here please" i said. His body turned towards me and finally he said down. i wrapped my arms around him and he finally let his tears fall. He picked me up and put me in his lap, i snuggled into him and let him cry. I began to hum and his tears began to dry. "Its gonna be okay Landon he hasn't wanted to see me in almost 2 years. he doesn't want me anymore" I said as strong as i could. I couldn't let him know i was weak. I couldn't let him know i was falling apart under the skin.

Landon wrapped his arms around my waist and began to hum "Home" by Three Days Grace. "No matter how hard i try your never satisfied. this house is not a home i think im better off alone. you always disappear even when your near this house is not a home i think im better off alone.... home... home... this house is not a home... home... home.... this house is not a home." i sang softly to him as he hummed. He looked at me in shock like i wasn't suppose to know the song he was humming or know when to come in. I shook my head to clear my thoughts. It was hard not to get distracted when i was with Landon he was just so perfect and i was just so.... plain.... how could he ever want me...