love,lies And Misunderstandings

part-75

Karan's pov

Its been....5 days since our fight ended....I did a great blunder.....

I am blessed that she gave me another chance.....

Everything is going fine between us....we are back together.....

But I feel this time not stronger than before....I feel our bond has become more weaker.....

We are normal....we go for cozy dinner, beach walks with ice-cream......

We cuddle and sleep in either her house or my house.....morning hugs, random kissed..... everything is there....

But....still something is missing....

I am missing that warmth....that was there between us before....I think I miss the genuine feelings which were there between us....

I think whatever now she is doing is not natural....it looks like she is forcing herself....to be with me....and she is forcing herself....to be with the feelings she had for me....

I feel....she has not forgiven me till now.... I mean she has....but in real....

And I have seen her now not trusting me much....she is not able to say that to me...

But I can see it in her eyes.....that something is stopping her from being the same cutie genuine girl....whom I met....

It looks like....most of the time she fakes herself....that she is happy with me....

She gets conscious..... whenever I post something about us....I didn't noticed first.....but then I did....and I stopped posting about us on social media.....

Because I don't want her to be unsure.....

Day before yesterday I planned a amazing date at home for us....I wanted to be with her.....since things were not going great between us....I wanted to have a deep convo on it....

I wanted to make her believe me...that I really love her....

But she came....I thought she will be happy seeing the surprise....but there was no reaction from her..... throughout the date....she was not looking that interested.....I could see.... because her eyes were not twinkling as they used to.....

I tried to talk to her.....even she did....but nothing was seem to be working....at last we slept.....

I was really sad..... because till day before yesterday she was atleast trying to be happy with me.....but now....she is just not ready....to be with me....

She looks so uninterested whenever I try to talk to her....to get intimate with her....

She just ignores me and go....

Technically she has forgiven me....but practically I don't think she trust me now....

It really feels like a sting in my heart.....

I think now SHE DOESN'T TRUST ME ENOUGH TO BE THAT REAL WITH ME....

I know I did a mistake.....it will not be easy for her to trust me again....

That's why I am still patient......

I was thinking all this while having a cup of coffee....and sitting on the swing of the balcony of my house....

And I heard the bell....
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He went and opened the door.....and it was teju....

My face broke into a mild smile.....while she was standing casually.....

He held her hand....and brought her inside.....

He hugged her close to his heart.....but as expected....he didn't got that same comforting warmth from her side.....