How Did We Get Here

Empty

I thought after the plane crash my life would slowly get better, boy was I wrong. Between losing Mark (Sofia's father) and Arizona (Sofia's mother) losing a leg, shutting me out, and falling into a deep depression; I was truly on my on wondering How'd We Get Here. After Arizona cheated I felt even emptier, as I laughed I wondered was it my fault each time somebody left or cheated.

George cheated on me with Izzie

Empty, I feel so goddamn empty
I may go rogue
Don't tempt me, big bullet holes
Tote semi-autos

Slept with Mark

Yeah, I'm keepin' it real, real, um
Keepin' it real, uh yeah
Life gets tough, shit is getting real
I don't know how to feel

Erica left me

All

Alone

Standing

In

The

Middle

Of

The

Parking lot

Swallowing all these pills
Know my real feels
Devil standing here
Tryna' make a deal, uh

Slept with Mark

Feel like I'm going crazy but still took a lot to get me here
Losing my sanity up in a house in the hills, hills, hills
I ain't have anything then and I still don't have anything still, still, still

Met the true love of my life: Arizona
I was truly happy, that was until I came out to my father and disowned me.

Bein' me, I rock PnB
These hoes actin' like gossip, TMZ
These drugs acting like
Moshpits squishing me

He finally accepts me, that's one accomplishment. Arizona wins a grant to go to Africa. She goes and she breaks up with me in the airport.

Oh my, oh me, how they kill me slowly
Lonely, I been gettin' no peace
OD, feel like overdosing
Low key I been looking for the signs
But all I can find is a sign of the times

I sleep with Mark and end up pregnant with his child. Arizona comes back.

From the unknown
I ran away, I don't think I'm coming back home
Whoa-whoa-whoa-whoa-whoa-whoa
Like a crawlspace, it's a dark place I roam

We solve our problems, finally something goes right.

They get on a plane to fly to Boise, plane crashes and they were stuck out there for 4 days.

Ain't no right way, just the wrong way I know
I problem solve with Styrofoam
My world revolves around a black hole
The same black hole that's in place of my soul, oh

Mark is on life support and I fight to save Arizona's leg. Turns out to be a big joke.

As I was in the middle of fixing Derek's hand, Alex comes in and tells me that Arizona was basically dying. "Cut off the leg".

Empty, I feel so goddamn empty
I may go rogue
Don't tempt me, big bullet holes
Tote semi-autos

Needles to say she was pissed at me and all I was tryna was save her life.
Mark had gotten better but it just seems like he couldn't stay better, and he fell into a coma.

I lost a father, a friend, and someone who I truly loved.

I ain't suicidal
Only thing suicide is suicide doors
Fight for survival
Gotta keep hope up, rolling good dope up

Life was just hell, Sofia went from 3 parents to 1. Arizona was alive but she wasn't well, she didn't wanna help with Sofia, she didn't want me to help her, she didn't want to anything but sit in her bed.

Hold my hand, through hell we go
Don't look back, it ain't the past no more
Gon' get to the racks, all them niggas want war
Yeah, I was put here to lead the lost souls

We slowly get better, took a couple of years but now we are here. My mental health isn't the best but I guess I'm here.

A storm hit Seattle and boy was their chaos. From the flooding, to power going out and working on limited supplies, to Arizona cheating.

Hahah yes you heard that right, Arizona cheated.

Exhale depression as the wind blows
These are the laws of living in vogue
We're perfectly imperfect children
Rose from the dust, all of us are on a mission

She couldn't sleep with me but she managed to sleep with someone she didn't even know.

Maybe it is my fault, it's always my fault.

Never gave a fuck, really came from rags to riches
Now we live it up, driving with the rooftop missin'
I don't give a fuck, really came from rags to riches
Now I live it up, driving with the rooftop missin'

We tried to fix it with therapy but hahaha that went as well as you would expected.

Divorce? Maybe that's what I wanted, wouldn't have been my first.

From the unknown
I ran away, I don't think I'm coming back home
Whoa-whoa-whoa-whoa-whoa-whoa
Like a crawlspace, it's a dark place I roam

Ain't no right way, just the wrong way I know
I problem solve with Styrofoam
My world revolves around a black hole
The same black hole that's in place of my soul, uh

All I know is that I feel Empty, I feel so goddamn empty, I may go rogue. Don't tempt me, big bullet holes. Tote semi-autos

Empty - by JuiceWRLD

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