Lost Cause

"I Hate You? Why?"

Justins Pov:
Adam was in his room for surprisingly a long time, but it makes sense because he's been feeling down for a few days now. I feel so bad because he won't tell me what's wrong. I go to try to knock on his door sometimes, but he just yells at me to go away. It makes me sad because this wasn't the sweet Adam I knew... instead, he changed into a closed up person, and I miss him so much. I pray every day, hoping that he'll be back to his old self. He doesn't even eat like he used to. He just starves himself, and when he does eat, he throws it back up, on purpose. I just want the silly Adam back... I miss him. Although we fought a lot, he's still the best person I know.

Adam's Pov:
I'm so sorry for causing Justin this pain, I just hate myself. I don't deserve anything in this life, I don't even deserve him. I want to give him a hug, but he'll hate me. I heard him talking to himself, saying how he missed me, but little does he know I miss myself too. I missed when people loved me and didn't hate me for every little thing I did. I just don't want to be here anymore.

Justin's Pov:
You know what? I'm going in there...I can't just sit here and let him go through this by himself he's my best friend, and I can't lose him...I'll never forgive myself. I burst into his room, and I saw him sitting on his bed in tears. I broke when I saw him like that. He looked so different, he looked sick like actually sick he hasn't eaten, hasn't drank anything, he doesn't even look like he's left his room. I wanted to hold him in my arms to tell him my words, but he looked at me and wouldn't take his eyes off me. We just stared at each other crying, unable to talk.

Adam:
Justin? I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm not the same person you knew. I know you hate me now.

Justin:
What? Why would I hate you? Adam, I love you...I love you so much.

Adam:
Why? I might as well be dead.

Justin Pov:
My heart broke when I heard those words... Why would he say that? I looked at him when I heard those words with tears in my eyes. I just wanted to hug him he deserves love. Why is he thinking like this? I don't understand. Did I do something?

Justin:
Adam, why? Why are you saying things like that? When have I ever showed or told you I hated you? Tell me, because if I have, I'm sorry, okay? I'm sorry I didn't mean it. You're amazing. You are my other half, Adam. I love you. I'll never hate you. I never have.

Justin's Pov:
When I said that, I saw his face soften, and his eyes started to well up. I didn't want him to cry, I just wanted him to know I loved him

Adam's Pov:
I don't know why, but I just cried after he said that. He's never done anything. He's always treated me right, I cried cause he's blamed himself because of how I felt.

Adam:
I'm sorry, Justin. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry you're stuck with me, and you have no one else, so I'm your go-to person.

Justin:
What are you talking about?

Adam:
You hate me, and now you're stuck with me.

Justin:
Adam, stop thinking like that. I love you, why are you saying things like that?

Adam:
Because since I hate myself, you hate me too. Don't even say you don't cause I don't believe you.

Justin:
Adam? Why? You know what? I need to do something I'll be back.

Justin's Pov:
I got put off there as soon as possible, with tears forming in my eyes. I ran outside and just cried, hoping that maybe Adam would stop saying things like that. I don't understand why. I needed to know, but he wouldn't tell me I just wanted to listen to his problems but Adam isn't that type of person to share his feelings, which made me feel even more horrible because he's always been like this but he's gotten worse

Adam's Pov:
I feel like the worst friend ever. I always make Justin cry, I can hear him from inside my room. I wanted to tell him what's wrong, but I don't want to make him feel like it's his fault, because that's not the case, it's from past experiences amd I don't want to talk about them. I'm just sorry, I'm so sorry Justin, he deserves better. That's why I have a surprise for him.