My Bully ~ Tom Kaulitz

PT 13

This chapter contains self harm, bullying etc. Please be aware.

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I might just be overthinking, but some part of me is hoping that I am. Not only is Bill being distant, he isn't showing any type of affection towards me. I didn't think much. He said he wasn't feeling good, maybe he just didn't want to get me sick, or so I thought.....

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I woke up in MY OWN bed because Bill told me he wanted to sleep alone. I respected it and slept in my bed. I took a shower and got dressed in a tight black shirt that showed my body. After the time dating Bill, he admired it so I started to dress my body up. Yet somehow, I covered up myself with one of Bill's jackets. A whiff of his Cologne went through the air as I put it on. I did my concealer and lashes, and chapstick. I put my shoes on while checking the time. 7:56. I quickly grabbed my items and ran downstairs to see Bill and Tom waiting for me. "Okay boys, let's go." I turned on my car as they got inside. Bill sat in the front and Tom sat in the back. "So Bill, how are you feeling?" I drove off.

"Better." He mumbled, looking out the window. I silently scoffed, looking through the review mirror to Tom as he was staring at me. I focused back on the road. We arrived at school and we got off. Tom walked off as Bill walked in front of me.  "Look..."

I looked up at him as he had a sorry face. "What?"

"I'm sorry I've been distant. I just needed time to myself to think. Our music is building up in my brain so I just needed to be alone. I'm sorry." He looked me in the eyes. I gave a soft smile and pulled him into a hug.

"It's okay. Just maybe next time, say something. I wouldn't want you going through this alone." I pulled away, giving him another kiss. But again, that kiss felt like something was off. I didn't put any thoughts into it. I interlocked my fingers with his as he gave a smile. We walked into school but all eyes were on us. It felt as if something was off.

"I'm gonna go to class, I'll see you after by your locker." Bill turned to me. I nodded my head as he pulled me into a hug, kissing my forehead. He walked away as I walked to my locker. I ignored what was going on around me and walked to class. The bell rang as I sat down in my chair, still getting stares. I looked back at Tom who was looking at me already. His expression showed that he also felt something off. I shrugged my shoulders and put my head down. I felt a tap on my shoulder. I looked and saw crumbled paper on the floor. I looked back to see who threw it at me, some girls who were smirking. And next to them, I saw lily. I picked up the note and read it.

Don't think that you and your boyfriend are going to last, not after what happened at the party

I looked back at them and they were snickering. I crumbled the paper back up and grabbed my bag, walking out of the class to the bathroom. I went into a stall and began to cry. Is this why he was being distant? Did he do something that could hurt our relationship? I took off his jacket and took out a blade that was in my pocket. I still carry one around. I began to slit my wrist. I felt like I was being played, like a girl in a book. I cleaned up, wrapping my wrist in paper and putting the jacket back on. I went silent as some girls came into the bathroom. I know little German, so the words I understood were party, kissed, bathroom and me, Bill's and Lilly's name.

"Well lily told me that at the party, Bill was using the bathroom and basically she went in and they kissed which then was a makeout session and he walked out like scared I guess. And y/n doesn't know."

They left as they continued to talk. I might be thinking of the worst. I put back on his jacket and cleaned my hands. I walked back out and there were few people in the hall who stared at me. I didn't pay no attention and walked to the rooftop. As I sat down, I pulled out a cigarette, lighting it up. I was really fooled. Was he lying? Or are they just trying to start drama? Deep into my thoughts, I felt a presence beside me. I looked to see Tom. "Y/n? You okay?"

I sighed. "No not really." I grabbed the note and passed it to Tom. I began to cry as he read it.

"I don't think you should believe lily, she is a liar. Plus Bill wouldn't do something like this." He ripped the paper. I passed him the cigarette and he took it.

"That's the thing. Some girls came into the bathroom as I was....thinking and they mentioned my name, bills name, Lily's name and kissing, and bathroom. Put 2 and 2 together Tom." I got up and left. I just needed to be alone.

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This took longer to make because I was watching a movie at the same time. But last one for today. This also isn't proofread. Hope you enjoy it.
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