Season of Love (Jewel Perez)

Chapter Seven: I wish I were Heather

It has been raining heavily every day but the classes are still on-going. 

It has been weeks since I found out that Ace and Ella had a thing going on between them and I also found out that they've been having a thing for two months now. I didn't notice that. I just notice the changes between them, but I didn't notice how long were they. Maybe Ace is being serious with Ella. I mean, she's pretty and smart and she also look like a smart kid. She also have a beautiful family. Unlike me, unlike mine.

I start to get my clothes so I could change in the girl's bathroom near outside our classroom, while I am walking alone in the cold and rainy day in the afternoon, I saw Ace and Ella looking like they're having a serious fight. But there were no shouts or whatever. They were just talking, but looking at Ace's face, he looks like pleading. 

I slowly spied on their conversation, hiding behind a huge tree not near them too. I look at them. Ella seems nonchalant and also about to cry too but she looks like she's staying on her own ground. Meanwhile Ace looks like he's almost pleading not to leave him. 

"... Please, maybe there's still a way to fix things for us? I can be better. I know we're too young for this, but I can wait. I can really, really wait. Just please, tell me you won't leave." Ace said, pleading and almost raspy voice. 

I froze on my spot. So that's how he pleads. That's how he loves. 

"I'm sorry, Ace. I really can't. I need to. I didn't want this too, the idea of leaving you but I just can't. I am not ready for these kinds of things. I am way too scared-"

"Then trust me, please Ella... don't leave.." Seeing him pleading makes my heart ache so much. 

If it were me, I would never make you plead that way.

"I'm sorry, I just can't. Let's just stay as friends. But as lovers? I can't. I'm really sorry." Ella said. 

"Then, can I at least hug you? For one last time. This is all I ask for you, one last time Ella." He said and Ella gave in and they both hugged tightly for the first and the last time. 

My heart aches so much looking at them. I ran away. The rain started to pour heavy as I ran through the field going back to my room. I arrived at the classroom wet and cold due to heavy rain but that didn't mattered to me. What mattered to me is how it hurts seeing him that way. 

Because of this, I realized that these past few weeks I still really like him. My feelings for him hasn't changed. And it's hard. Because I might be falling for him in love and not just some normal admiration to someone. 

And it hurts so bad realizing that.