I have know you for about 6 years, we were never the closest friends but we enjoyed each other's company. I loved spending time with you. You made me laugh like no one else could. This last year I started to see you differently, more romantically. But we didn't talk much, you had your friends and I had mine. But sometimes our friend groups would gather and we would get to spend time together.
This year we went on a school trip together, to Barcelona. We sometimes got to spend time just you and me. I really enjoyed your company, but I knew it wasn't going to become something because you were still in love with her. Your relationship with her ended a long time ago but you were still not over it. But are you even over it now?
I got chills every time you would text me. I loved talking to you, but it were friends conversations.
On the journée retho, we stayed a but together and I loved it, I really have fun with you.
Just after the exams you made a little party at your place, I didn't expect to get invited but I'm glad I was. I had a great time. You are truly an amazing person.
Then came the day of prom. You were in that beautiful blue dress. You were stunning. We stayer à lot together that night. We even slow danced as "friends", I did not see you as only a friend I knew I wanted more. When I got home I didn't have to wait to long before getting a text message from you. You hoped I was arrived home without a problem. We then talked a bit and you told me I was stunning in my dress. That made me feel a way I had never before.
Then we continued talking for while, we could not see each other because you were on holiday.
Everything was perfect we had wonderful conversation, but sometimes you would get scared and freak out. I tried saying everything would be alright but I don't think you were ever really ok. I thought I could help you. But you didn't need me, you needed your self to get better. But we always ended up ok after so I let it slide every time.
When you got back from holiday we knew we had to see each other.
My parents were away with my brothers for the weekend so I thought I was going to make a small party. But you ended up coming the first night alone.
In the beginning I was a bit stressed, I didn't know what to say. I gave you a small tour of the house then we played uno and an other game I had never played, I lost. And you loved winning so I was happy. We then decided to go watch a movie. You absolutely wanted a horror movie, I honestly did not care. But I'm not the biggest fan of those type of movies. We started to watch the movie and after just a few minutes we were already really close. I loved your body against the mine. We switched movie after half an hour because you were to scared and I thought it was boring. We watched your favourite movie, Up. I really didn't pay attention, you started playing with my hands. I loved it very much. I didn't want that moment to end, never. We then got even closer. I felt good, I felt calm. I had never felt like that. I really wanted to kiss you. My heart was beating really fast and I was starting to loose my breath. I also began to feel very warm I you know what I mean. After the movie we went to my room. You put on some music and i got in your arms. It really surprised me how confortable i felt with you. I am usually never that confortable with other people. I was waiting for one thing it was you kissing me. I would have never kissed you, I was way to scared. But god did I want to. Around 3 o'clock you took my head in your hand and you passed you thumb in my lips and kissed me. I thought I was going to die. You made me feel thing I had never felt. The way your thumb caressed my lips every time got me every time. I had already made out with boys, but I didn't enjoyed it. You I enjoyed every bit of it.
You loved teasing me, making me ask for it. God did that do things to my body.
I loved because I knew you wanted me but didn't force me. I loved making you feel that way.
We then talked a bit, made out a bit more and went to sleep. I slept in your arms.
You got a panic attack around 6 o'clock i didn't know what to do. You told me to sleep, that I needed it. But I didn't feel comfortable leaving you like that.
We then both feel back asleep. At 8:26 the fire alarm started to ring I got really scared. But it went of by it self. And we got back in my bed.
We hugged, made out and hugged again. We then got up to go eat breakfasts I was really tired but loved spending time with you. You then went to get dressed and we hugged some more in the couch and then kissed one last time before you leaving.
