comfort (germany x reader x russia)

chapter 1

I silently watched the others in the meeting hall. They were debating over global warming, again. I had given up trying to voice my opinion, no one heards me , saw me, paid attention to me, anything. Either that or they just didn't care. Both ideas hurt. You would think after putting up with it for so long it wouldn't bother me anymore, but it was the opposite actually. Every time i approached my brother, Alfred, or other brother Arthur, and they asked him who i was, it killed me a little more inside.
Even Canada gets seen more than me.
The only time I get any sign of being noticed is because of my science and research that's also the only thing that allows me to come to world meetings since I'm not an True country.

The pain only increasing over time until it became unbearable. I didn't even need to act like it didn't bother me, because as soon as i was out of sight, i was out of mind. More blatantly put they would forget about me again, and i once more became invisible. Yes, sometimes i would wallow in self pity, but mostly i kept my emotions bottled up. This usually led to massive explosions where I'd cry for hours or scream at something or someone for no reason really. However no one was ever there to comfort me. On many occasions I had contemplated suicide. If i died, no one would miss me, they wouldn't remember me anyway. I would simply disappear, and the thought of "y/N" would never again cross their minds.
I wonder what would happen if I did just disappeared. No one would miss me, and I highly doubt anyone would care. It would just me more land to claim, but me being hear dose not stop them from trying multiple times I've heard them talking about calming my land, and every time I to say something It would get flushed out by america and his loudmouth.
"*sigh*" I said as I looked around the room one last time
Italy was all up on germany who I secretly had a small crush on.
Romano was trying to get italy off of him and spain was trying to talk to romano.
France, america,and England were in an argument about something completely stupid.
I sighed again before getting up left.
As usual no one saw or cared.

Or so I thought...