"What did I do to deserve this? I'm a mistake at best. "
People say that you should love your family no matter what, but what if they don't love you? They know I hate myself. They know I can't stand my weight. They know I get dizzy spells from not eating. They know I've been called worthless so many times that I don't have to hear it anymore to know it's true. But yet they still say they don't need me. I'm worthless. They know that I want to die so badly, but they don't care. They don't care when I tell them I want to die. They brush it off their shoulders, convinced it's just a "phase", as they watch their "precious" daughter fall deeper and deeper into this whole of the nothingness she's become. But no one cares until it's too late.
One day, I swear on all I have, I'll disappear. All I can say is that I've warned them. I told them. They ask me what's wrong, but when I tell them I want to die, they act like I just want attention. When I tell them I'm fat, they say, " but you're not fat." Yeah, that's gonna help me a whole lot, thanks. They act like my feelings are things I say because I'm "at that age". They act like I asked to be like that. Why would I want to be a worthless nothing? Why would I ask to be a fuckup? But they never care until you're gone. Let me do the world a favor. Maybe, I'll end it all tonight. Maybe, then you won't have to worry about me anymore. I'll simply disappear, but that's how everyone likes it.
