Love Maybe...... / kwon soon young and lee soo hyuk fiction

: 1 : A new beginning

Hoshi pov:

"What!!?? Mom are you even serious?" I yelled at my mom. When we were eating our dinner she told me that she's going to marry someone.

"I love him hoshi, and I don't want to ignore this feling anymore!" Mom yelled back. "That doesn't making any sense mom!" I punched the table.

" Why don't you understand hoshi? I love him he'll accept both of us and will take care of us! We'll be living a happy life son!" She tried to cup my cheeks but I backed off.

"I don't want anything mom. You're enough for me. I don't want you to get tortured by someone else like dad used to do to you." I said as a tear drop slipped from my eyes.

"He won't do anything to me. I promise you honey!" She wiped off my tears and hugged me. But I was not in that mood.

"I've done so many things till today hoshi. Now I'm tired, i also need someone to take care of myself." She said while stroking my hair.

I couldn't resist anymore. So I broke the hug and went to my room and locked it from inside. I sit by the door and hugged my knees crying and sobbing hard.

I was so young, when my father used to beat my mom every night after coming home drunk. He also used to beat me sometimes too.

That time my mom and dad, both of used to work and earn money. But the difference was, that my mom eared money for me and for the house chaos, and my dad spend all money at some bar or something.

I couldn't forget the sence where my mom used to beg for mercy to leave her, but he never listened. He beat her till he get satisfied.

I've seen my mom going through all the hard times, all alone. While suffering from depression, anxiety and truma all alone. I can't even imagine a life same as her.

But one day, while coming back home he got hit by a car and died. That day my mom cried the last time.

After that she took really good care of me and my studies too. She worked hard day and night, so that we can live a good life.

Now that she's wanting to marry someone. I don't know how he'll treat my mom. I don't even know who he is? How could I trust him with my mom?

But somewhere, I am happy. Happy, because my mom found the love of her life. I have only wished the best for her.

Cause, everything she has done till now, was all for me. To give me a beautiful life, she gave so many sacrifices.

But she's also right, she also needs someone to take care of her. Even tho I try hard, i couldn't give her what she wants.

Will it be ok if I let her marry that man?

I think, I should trust her. She's old enough to make her own decisions. She has done for me enough, it's time for her to do something for herself.

I keep on fighting with my thoughts the whole night and didn't slept at all. I just waited for the sun to rise while sitting by the door. I'm sitting here from the last night.

I didn't moved an inch as I was so lost in my own thoughts, thinking if I'm going to do the right thing.

It was already 7:30 I got up and went out to have a proper talk with my mom. After what I did last night, i don't think she'd smile.

I don't know how to face her, still I'm going to her. I got in the kitchen and saw her cooking breakfast for us.

She noticed my presence behind her and turned around. "Ooh, you're up. Good morning Hoshi!" She said with her sweet smile.

She is smiling at me? Even after what I did last night? I couldn't control my tears and immediately back hugged her, sobbing lightly.

"I'm sorry mom! I shouldn't have said that!" I said between my sobs. She broke the hug and turned to me.

"I should be the one to ask for forgiveness. I should've given you some time to think about this all." She said in a gentle voice.

"No, i was being an asshole! You should've slapped me. But you didn'. I'm still sorry mom!" I brusted in tears.

"It's fine if you don't want me to get married. I just want you to be happy, whatever the situation is." She said while hugging me.

"I've thought about that all night mom. And I think that you should get married." I said controlling my sobs.

She broke the hug and said, "Are you sure? And what made you think like that?" She was quite in shock to say anything.

"Hmm! You've done everything for me. Now it's time for you to do what you want for yourself." I said while holding both of her hands, assuring her.

"Will you be ok with this?" She asked with some hope in her eyes to have a positive response.

"Yeah, but that man gotta promise me that he won't hurt you!" I said with a pout, so that she won't think that I'm being rude with her.

"Ooh Hoshi, you don't know how much happy I'm with your answer. Thank you so much son." She excitedly hugged me.

"You're welcome mom!" I said while hugging her back tightly. After some time we pulled out. "Look, what you've done to yourself! Who told you to cry this much?" She slapped my head lightly making me giggle.

"I'm sorry for that! I was just worried about you! But what are you making by the way? It smells so good!" I said while sniffing the sweet smell of the breakfast.

"I'm getting hungry. Mom feed me today. It's been a while." I cutely said. "Ok my little tiger! Anything for you!" She said and pinched my cheeks.

"After breakfast you have to get enough sleep till then, I'll pack our things cause we're leaving today." Mom said making me shock.

"Are we moving out today?" I said and she nodded. "Yeah!" "Isn't too early mom?" I whined.

"I don't think so. Now go and sit on the dinning table. I'm coming with food." She said and I nodded.

I went to the dinning table and mom feed me. I don't know what is my future holds for me, but as long as mom is with me I'm ready to fight with them all.

-: To be continued :-