Unbreakable Heart

Leaving for Good

Naniniwala ba kayo sa kasabihang "I Build a man for another woman"? For me? Yes! I am the living proof of that. I always build a better man but at the end of the day? They'll choose someone else. And i always end up being alone, I always give everything that i always end up empty after they left me behind.

I was in the lobby of the airport waiting for my flight, I've decided to leave the country for good. Maybe philippines is not really for me. Ayoko ng ma alala ang rason bakit kailangan kong umalis, I dont want to remember him anymore. I want a fresh start, without him nor anyone connected with him.

Hindi ko namalayan tinatawag na pala kami, I manage to go to the airplane without looking back. Baka mag bago pa isip ko at tumakbo pabalik sa kanya. Nakikinig lang ako sa pinag sasabi ng flight attendant parang ini explain yung dapat gawin habang nasa flight.

We ask that you please fasten your seatbelts at this time and secure all baggage underneath your seat or in the overhead compartments. 

Tss. As if naman hindi gagawin ng pasahero yun. Anyways hindi na ako nakinig sa kanila, this is not the first time i ride an airplane so im not new to this. I closed my eyes and rest while were on air i dont mind them those people who look dumb while riding an airplane tss.

Ladies and gentlemen, [Pacific] welcomes you to [New york city]. The local time is [9:00]. For your safety and the safety of those around you, please remain seated with your seat belt fastened and keep the aisle(s) clear until we are parked at the gate.

Finally! After so many years im finally home! I miss my home land. I miss mom and dad, they're the only people who will never leave me. Despite the fact that i chose him over my parents and friends. No! No! No! Enough! I dont want to remember him anymore! Pagka labas ko sa airport nakita ko na agad yung limousine na pina sundo nina mommy at daddy.

Nakita ko agad si uncle jerome holding a banner with my name on it HAHAHA wala pa ring pinag bago his my personal driver since when i was a kid. His a filipino and i used to call him uncle tho his not family related but his a like a father to me.

" Astreaaaaa! Ihaaa kamusta kana? Gutom ka na? Musta ang byahe mo?" HAHAHAHA uncle will always be uncle kaka dating ko pa lang inulan na ako ng tanong. "Uncle im fine, and im not hungry i just want to go home i miss my mom and imissyou too uncle" malambing na sabi ko kay uncle well his 50 years old na he has his own family and his daughter also works in our mansion. "Halika na miss na miss kana ng mommy mo nung nalaman na umuwi ka hindi na mapakali kaka utos sa mga maids para mag handa" masayang sabi ni uncle. Well mommy is always like that nasanay na lang ako.

Sumakay na ako sa sasakyan nalagay na rin ni uncle yung gamit ko. Natulog na lang ako sa byahe since malayo yung mansion sa airport. Nagising na lang ako nung ginising ako ni uncle jerome na nasa mansion na kami.

I thanked him and go inside. I saw my mom busy ordering something sa maid. "Mom im home" i called her and she instantly look at me with a teared eye, "Astrea! My baby astrea, mommy miss you baby, how are you?" Naiiyak na sabi ni mommy habang yakap yakap ako. I dont know but my mom hug's made me realized how dumb i am for choosing that person my parents. I never cried in front of anyone. But i can hide my emotions in front of my mom. My precious mom andrea. "mommy imissyou im sorry im sorry im so so sorry for what i've done please forgive me im sorry mom" Humagulgol na ako sa harap ni mommy ng maramdaman ko ang isang kamay na humahaplos sa ulo ko and im sure that's daddy. My lovely daddy zack. "shhh you will always our baby. You are always welcome here, you can always run to us, always remember that my princess" naka ngiting sabi ni daddy.

Pag katapos ng iyakan serye namin ni mommy dinala nila ako sa dining area and mom cooks the food kasi sabi niya special day daw to since kaka uwi ko lang. After namin kumain they let me rest which is i gladly obliged.

Imbis na matulog ako, I cannot stop myself but to think the reason why i chose to left my parents.