Alice In Borderland OneShots

Niragi - ♣️/♥️

Niragis POV:

I was sitting up on the roof, handling traitor work as I always did. My girlfriend was — I don't know. Fuck. I don't know where she is.

I sighed heavily and pinched the bridge of my nose, furrowing my eyebrows as I sat there thinking where she could be.

You know what, I'm gonna text her.

< Doll, where are you? >

I sent, waiting eagerly for a response. When she finally did respond, I quickly glanced at the message, sighing with relief.

< In our room, why? > She texted back to me.

I liked the message and explained I just wanted to know where she was. I needed to know her location at all times; it's a protection thing.

I stared through the scope of my gun and shot traitors, just work that I did any other day. Gosh, don't get me wrong — shooting traitors was hella fun, and I got a rush of happiness out of it...but it was so fucking annoying sometimes. None of us militants get recognition for what we do and it is absolute bullshit.

I shook my head and stuck my tongue out in concentration, tilting my head to the side as I shot another traitor, right in the head. I'm too good.

After awhile of doing the same thing over and over — my mind wondered to other things.

The cheesecake I had in the fridge for later, my sexy ass girlfriend...and.

No.

I shook my head, trying to ignore the negative thought that rushed through my mind.

God fucking damnit.

I clenched my jaw in annoyance, my whole mood had been ruined. I didn't let my past control me or my life. For the most part, I nearly pushed those thoughts to the back of my head...but for some reason, I began to think about it again.

All those dark memories started rushing back.

And to be so quite frankly honest, It didn't even necessarily make me sad. Or scared. Fuck being scared, I felt absolutely no fear whatsoever. I told my fears to fuck off a long time ago.

When I started thinking about my past now a days? The way those good for nothing assholes tormented me whenever they got the chance...It made me mad. No. It made me infuriated. I got so fucking pissed off whenever they crossed my mind.

I try my best to not think about them — and once again, I do a pretty good job at forgetting those memories...but leave me and my thoughts alone for too long and my mind goes to places they shouldn't.

Whenever I think about them...I think about the horrible things I could do to them...the way I would torture them one by one. Hear their anguished screams as I ripped them apart.

If I ever see them again? I won't feel fear. Never again will I feel fear from them or anyone else — I'll feel rage. And I'm gonna take it all out on them.

My mind flashed to a certain flashback...when they hit my body parts with a baseball. So fucking stupid. I was so pathetic back then.

But now?

Tsk. I'm confident, better looking, and just overall a more comfortable person. I'm more comfortable with myself. The way I look and the way I act.

My girlfriend loves me for the way I am? So. If she loves me...that's all that matters.

I clenched my gun and let out a low growl, sighing heavily before going back to my shared dorm with my lover.

Before she could even greet me, I put my gun down and walked past her, to my work space at my desk and began working.

My occupation is a game engineer — I create games. I tried doing that for awhile to occupy myself...but it just didn't work.

My lover knocked twice before walking in. Her bright curious doe eyes gleaming at me...I couldn't help but get pissed off. I didn't wanna get mad at her, but I couldn't afford to have conversation.

"Babe. Just— Go." I spoke out in a sort of demanding tone, seriously wanting her to go.

She looked at me with confusion, "wha—" I cut her off and slammed my hands on my desk, turning my head to her —

"—GO." I shouted, so bad I felt my veins start to bulge out of my neck. I knew I had fucked up. I can't. I'm so pissed. It has nothing to do with her and I still took it out of her.

I watched her small frame tense up as her eyes widened, the gleam in her eyes vanished: making her expression dark and gloomy. She put her head down and nodded a little with a soft 'okay, sorry' before walking out.

"Goddamn it." I said to myself, dragging a stressed hand over my face.

What have I done.

I didn't know what she was doing now...what if she was crying? What if she left our dorm somewhere else? All these 'what ifs' ran through my mind. I couldn't stand it. I had so much on my mind.

Let it go, Niragi. She's more important. I told myself before standing up. I walked out and saw her sitting on the couch, staring at the TV yet it seemed her attention wasn't even on what was playing on the television. Instead, her head turned to me, and her expression dimmed again.

"...Doll..." I mumbled, walking over as I kneeled down in front of the couch. I grabbed her hands and took a deep breath inwards.

"I know—...I know a simple 'sorry' isn't gonna fix this. You have no idea whats going on nor do you know why I snapped at you. And, I know I said it wouldn't do anything — but you still deserve an apology from me. I'm sincerely sorry, my love. Yelling at you was one of the most immature things I could've done..I sprawled out my male anger out on you, and I shouldn't have." I told her, watching her deeply pay attention to everything I had to say.

"I thought about...the past. I was on the roof and my mind started to wander...I sincerely apologize. I hope you can forgive me..I will do whatever it takes to—" I got stopped by her leaning forward and kissing my forehead.

No. She couldn't have forgiven me already.

"Baby, no—I don't deserve your forgiveness so easily...I startled you...I need to do more." I told her, but she just shook her head in response.

"Mmnnmm.." She disagreed and cupped my face with her small hands. "Nope...I don't want to hear you plead and beg for forgiveness...I appreciate you trying to earn my forgiveness...and are willing to do whatever it takes...but I'm just glad that I got an explanation...now I can help you through it."

"What...?" I started, but she pulled me up on the couch before I could say anything else.

"It was a traumatic experience, Niragi. And I'm sure you don't want to talk about it anymore, so we won't...but just know? I love you. And I wouldn't change a thing about you. You had every right to let out your emotions, even though it was accidentally on me. Things happen? You realized your mistake. You handled that situation maturely."

I listened to my beautiful love explain everything, I admired her as she spoke to me...I was forever grateful that she forgave me..I nodded and held her close to me, thanking her as I kissed her lips and cuddled her for the rest of the night.