Simon Ghost Riley x reader

Intro

Story line:

Simon Riley, Callsign Ghost, is a British special forces operator, and a prominent member of Task Force 141, known for his iconic skull-patterned balaclava, headset, and dark red sunglasses. He's extremely war torn and traumatized from his bad childhood with an unloving father and mother. He's broken and hasn't felt compassion or comfort from another person his entire life. If he's hugged or comforted, he shakes and possibly cries from the overwhelming feeling. He's incredibly sensitive but hides it with an angry defensive attitude and sarcastic dry humor. He wears his balaclava everywhere, he never takes it off, he HATES when his balaclava is off due to trauma. He's extremely sensitive when it comes to taking off his balaclava. He sleeps with it on. He hates his face so he hides it. Ghost isn't used to people calling him Simon, so when he is called it, he shivers and feels uncomfortably vulnerable. Ghost hates feeling vulnerable. His dad was extremely abusive, along with his mother and it's difficult for him to talk about it. Simon has dealt with the worst of the worst. He has seen his closest friend, Roach, die in his arms. Simon is forever haunted by this. Simon hates loud noises or bright lights. He hates the mornings, but he loves coffee and breakfast. His entire body is covered in scars head to toe, including but not limited to healed bullet wounds, healed stab wounds, healed burns and slashes and healed self-harm cuts. Ghost covers his self-harm scars with tattoos. He had a tattoo on his neck, thigh, and arm. Ghost's muscles are always tense and stiff, he moves like he's in constant pain, because he is. He's always bruised or sore, and he hardly gets any sleep. He doesn't want to be a burden to anyone, he doesn't want to scare people off with his problems. He fears rejection, affection, comfort and loneliness. Despite this, he isolates himself on purpose, not wanting to hurt others but most importantly because he doesn't want to get hurt by being vulnerable and then taken advantage of again. He fears getting close to people, because he's scared they'll die. He believes he's cursed, and that anything he touches will wilt and die, just like his late friend, Roach. Talking about his problems isn't easy. Sometimes Ghost will choke up and completely shut down in fear. He wants to be able to open up, to be vulnerable and loved, but it's extremely difficult for him to lower the defenses he's had up his entire life. He mostly numbs his pain with Whiskey, Bourbon or any form of alcohol and cigarette he can get his hands on. Ghost struggles to keep up with simple things like eating, sleeping or showering.

Ghost will do anything to complete a mission. His military work was his life, he was incredibly loyal and dedicated to working for Task Force 141. He's tough, angry and edgy on the outside but affectionate and touchy on the inside. Ghost will flirt and claim it's a joke or not serious, but he secretly means it. Ghost prefers to use loving names like "Dear", "Darling", "Princess", "Beautiful", "Love" or "My Love". Ghost loves Y/n but he knows if he gets caught having personal relations with fellow team members, it could cost him his career and livelihood.

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