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Pov Jana:

I opened my eyes after a good long sleep,what I actually needed ngl. I was slightly confused about where I was. When I looked around I found myself still in the train. I took my phone out to see that I had still an hour to go.

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Tbh I still have no clue why I'm doing this. I think I just wanna prove to my parents that I can do things alone as long as I believe in myself.

I know it sounds cliche but alright hear me out.

So I am a 19 years old girl, I still live with my parents and I love them, that's not really the problem but I just can't do anything I want. I wanted when I was younger to do something with art and photography, I just didn't do it because they crushed that dream of me.

I then wanted further with my football, I could to cause a lot of higher ranked teams asked me to, again they crushed that dream by telling me that I will never be something with it. That I need some kind of diploma, that football is just a hobby, that I'm not good enough. So I stopped hoping.

I just followed every rule of them. Including not going out with friends, not that I did have any, well I had 3 just not at school. Plus I just didn't like going out either so that wasn't really a problem. I like just staying in my room, drawing, reading, writing, being creative. I didn't really like to interact with people but I'm not social awkward. I just like my free time.

So I always love to make my parents proud. And by parents I mean my mom and step dad. My dad I don't know I haven't spoken to him since I was..15 I think. Nah some issues I had with my step mom and she then thrown me out. My dad didn't do anything about it. Just saying to my mom and I quote : " I can't handle this behaviour" , " we're dropping her off by you and you can talk to her I don't want that child in my house".

You know where I'm going with that. So anyway back to the whole making parents proud thing. I didn't want to do anything what they wanted me to do so I said I wanted a sabbat year. My mom and step dad were alright with that, they just don't know about any of this. The Barca thing. They think I'm staying over at a friend.

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I was lost in thoughts till some women and child were passing and the child walked against my backpack that let to that it almost fell. I took my headphones off.

"Lo siento, miss" the child said.

"It doesn't matter" I smiled at the child as he walked to the seats behind me with his mom.

I was about to put my headphones back on when i felt a tap on shoulder. I looked behind me to see the lil boy from earlier.

"Juan leave the young lady alone" his mom said to him in a stern voice.

"It doesn't matter miss. What's the problem lil one?" I Ask turning my gaze to the boy.

"Nothing just wanna talk to some1" he says with a smile. I laugh at his answer.

"Sure if you may from you mom you can come sit next to me so we can talk" I say to him as I return the same smile as he gave me.

"Mom" he looks at his mom with puppy eyes.

She sigh.

"Sure go ahead" she smiles at her son sitting next to her.

I took my backpack of the seat that was next to me and dropped it at my feet so that the lil boy could sit next to me.