An Awkward Late Night Confession

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Kenma POV

Why did this have to happen to me... Isn't these situations meant to stay in the universe of cheesy romance fiction and stay there.

"So Kenma! How do you plan on confessing to Kuroo?" Hinata's voice rang through the phone. Honestly Kenma hadn't put much thought into it since Hinata brought up the idea last week, if he's being honest he didn't even want to confess. Well he did, but he didn't want to embarrass himself.

"I was just..."

"Just gonna..." He hesitated.

"I'm just gonna straight up tell him. This is real life, not a movie."

"Boring." Hinata states elongating the g before hanging up. So that's all he wanted huh. To be nosey.

How am I gonna tell him? Hinatas is now expecting me to tell him tonight like we planned but today arrived earlier than expected. This week went by too quickly and now I am going to be embarrassing myself in front of Kuroo in a few hours. Why am I stressing over this, it's not Hinata's confession it's mine. I don't need to confess. My feelings could forever remain a secret. I can live with that. Plus Kuroo as a boyfriend would be... actually no he would be a great boyfriend, he's already a great best friend.

'Best friend' How is it that I manage to fall for not only my best friend but my childhood friend. Using terms like 'lover' and 'partner' for him shouldn't be on my mind but somehow I can't help it. Sure enough he may also think the same about me, the looks he gives me and the casual 'friendly' flirting could suggest that and has only heightened my suspicions that he does but there's always that doubt.

As soon as I convince myself he does like me back, the other voice at the back of my head just has to intervene and convince me otherwise.

Ring ring ring

Speaking of the devil, Kuroo's calling.

"Kenma, long story short, I'm still at Bokuto's and won't be back until much later. Do you mind if I visit you later today? In about 3 hours max?" Honestly this was a blessing in disguise, he had some extra time to prepare himself. He was definitely going to confess. The place was ideal.

If it went right their hangout could continue as normal. If it went wrong Kuroo only lived a few doors down the street and could get home easily, in contrast to if he went anywhere special to confess. As well as this he would be able to just sulk in bed until he was able to face the world again. Preferably without giant eye bags and glossy eyes.

"Yeah sure. I'm just going to be gaming at home anyway." I went to turn on my pc again.

"Okay well Bokuto is trying to cook and Akaashi is standing by the fire extinguisher ready so I better go help in some way. Bye!"

"..Bye." My eyes, drifting to the screen.

Beeeep

"Time to distract myself."

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"I like you."

"What? Who are you again?"

She's walking away but why does it feel like the footsteps are getting closer.

"So how did it go? Do you have a girlfriend now?" The older boy excitedly asks.

"Badly." I sigh and walk away.

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Junior high crushes... why did that upset me so much I never even liked her looking back on it. I remember how supportive Kuroo was throughout that insanely hard time of my life. Having been rejected by a girl I spoke to once or twice was the most humiliated I'd ever felt. Only now it is worse; relationships are more serious and the humiliation will be even more unbearable. How would I show my face around Kuroo if my suspicions were wrong. I know he's bisexual but that doesn't mean he likes me or even anybody at the minute. The flirting could have been friendly and the faces could just be a bad observation on my part. I am not going to be able to do this.

Timeskip

I hear the door suddenly open, since I'm home alone right now it's either Kuroo or a serial killer looking for their next victim.

I turn around expecting to meet my demise but instead Kuroo is standing there with his attractive face peering down at me in a 'as expected' look.

"Oh.. um hey." God why am I being so awkward it's just Kuroo for fucks sake.

"..Hey?"

We just stared in silence. This atmosphere is too tense right now.

"So what are we playing?" Kuroo came over and quickly sat down next to me.

"Anything. You choose."

"Minecraft."

I switched the game over from the game I was playing to Minecraft. Kuroo's never been the greatest at video games so every time I ask him which to play the answers is always the same.

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"What's that game?" The young boy excitedly asks whilst his eyes gleamed at the screen.

"Minecraft. It's the only game my parents let me play right now." The other said with a slight scowl showing on his face.

"Why? They're just games aren't they?" States the taller in a questioning manner. "Aren't games meant for kids?"

"These are grown up games. Apparently they're 'too violent' according to my dad."

"Oh. That's dumb."

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The first time we played together. I remember we played for hours. Built a castle, on creative mode obviously Kuroo couldn't handle survival, showed him the nether and tried to visit the end realm. That seemed impossible at the time.

"Hey.. um Kuroo."

"Yes Kenma?"

Was I really about to do this? Why am I, I am not ready right now so why is my mouth moving before my brain. This is unusual, normally I would have to play out a million situations before the thought of what to say even crossed my mind.

No, I can't do this right now.

"Uh? Kemna?" I looked over at Kuroos' curious face "You were saying?"

"Doesn't matter" Kuroo looked concerned, like he didn't believe me. I looked back over at the screen "I forgot."

"KUROO I LIKE YOU"

"FUCK!"

N0. No. No. No. No.No. No. Why me... Stupid fucking slow brain. Why couldn't it not just stop my mouth before I blatantly screamed my feelings in Kuroos face. If he liked me before he probably doesn't now. Stupid..fucking..brain.

"I like you too..." What? Did I hear that correctly? He likes me.

"Cool."

"Cool."

Awkward...

How long is this silence going to last? It feels like it's been hours.

22:45

Ten minutes.

"Kenma." He spoke. He looks so...

My lips crash onto his, he doesn't kiss back. "Sorry, I should have asked." My eyes move to the ground before a hand is placed under my chin and my gaze is moved back upward.

Kuroos lips crash back into mine. I kiss back.

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This is not my best work. Starting this I had plenty of motivation but the more time I spent on this the more I found myself hating the plot more and more, so I am sorry if this stories ending seems rushed.