Mental illness I'm the midst of new beginnings

It's not you it's me. No really

When I try and make relationships work out I've found it hard to call them and text all day. It's new to me, and I don't know if I want a part of it. Really. But this guy is really nice and sweet but I don't know if I feel an attraction to him. Given the fact that I've never really dated men. It's new to me and I don't like it. I feel like I should tell him which I will, since I want this relationship to be healthy. On our first video chat he said something at the end that really made it sink in. This may or may not be good for me. I'm going to get my oracle cards out and see if I can get an answer. I'll come back and explain.