The Great War of Love

Chapter four

Okay so i kind of changed up the story a bit, what i did will help the story later on. Sorry for the inconvenience! Im working on the chapter six right now though and should be posted soon!

“So what made you decide to become a nurse?” James asks. It’s been almost an hour and we’ve been talking the whole time.

“I like the idea of helping people,” I say. Even though I may not actually be becoming a nurse, I do actually like the idea of helping people. 

James nods and looks at me, “Is there anything bad about you?”

“Um,” I say, not sure how to reply to that, which makes him laugh.  I look out the window to try to hide my burning face, but it doesn’t fade.

“Okay, well I have to use the bathroom. You think about that question while I’m gone,” he smiles at me then makes his way down the aisle.

This is the perfect time for me to slip away and get ready. I really don’t want to leave though; I’ll probably never see James again. I take a deep breath and get up though; I know what I have to do. I grab my bag and make my way down the aisle in the opposite direction James went. I don’t want to see his face once he gets back and realizes I left. I make my way into the next caboose and find a bathroom.  Once inside I take another deep breath. This is it, no turning back after this. I start taking off my clothes and changing into my brother’s uniform, its semi baggy and awkward on me but it will have to do. I had brought some fabric to tighten around my chest to make it flat which helped make me more boyish but the next step was my hair. I pulled out the wig i had decided to buy that looked like my brothers hair and put it on. After adjusting it a few times so it wasnt crooked it looked almost perfect. Seeing myself as him once I’m done is weird, I actually look like him.  Seeing myself like this makes me want cry, but doing so wouldn’t exactly look very manly as I step out of here. Im finishing up the last few touches when theres a knock on the door. 

“Hello?” I say, trying to deepen my voice a little bit but it just sounds weird.

“Sorry, just seeing if anyone was in there,” I hear a man say.

I need to work on my voice; that was terrible. For about ten minutes I stand there adjusting the pitch of my voice, trying to make it sound as manly, but also as normal as possible. Eventually I figure out something and finish cleaning up. Once I’m done though, the thought of walking out there and seeing if people notice that I’m a girl, dressed as a boy scares me. I take a deep breath, something I’ve been doing a lot of lately and grab my bag and open the door. I step out and walk down the aisle looking for an empty seat and find one in the back. No one even really looks at me, thank god. I sit down and adjust my bag so it’s covering the rest of my seat, I don’t want anyone to come sit by me. This is all just too weird, I need a few moments to myself. My hand automatically goes straight towards my hair and it feels so different, just like everything else. After a while I lean my head against the window and close my eyes, knowing there is no way I will actually fall asleep.

                “We should be there in about ten minutes,” I hear the man in front of me tell his wife. Ten minutes. I start to get really nervous, what if someone catches me? What would they do to me? I sit up and look at all the people sitting in the train, all of them normal and none of them dressed up as the opposite gender trying to pass of as a soldier. This is all just so crazy, but I can’t back out now, I already cut my hair, and if I can do that, I can hopefully do this as well.