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heaven & back

Heeseung is a stoner.

He lives in a ragtag studio apartment in one of the shittiest apartment blocks in Songpa (which is not that bad), works a nine to five job at the corner store a few blocks down while also studying music production to actually make something of his musical talent instead of just winning karaoke contests. He has precisely one friend and other acquaintances he has made through that one friend. He needs his daily dose of THC to be a functional human being. He spends most of his nights playing league instead of sleeping. He lives mainly on instant ramen and red bull. 

So yes, you can say he’s a little bit of a stoner. But he gets shit done. He has grades above average. His songs have been praised by his favorite professors. He makes money to sustain himself. He keeps his apartment fairly clean despite being a bit unorganized. He goes out with Jongseong and spends time with his friend group. He gets laid. 

The last one is the part where people actually start looking at him with doubt. It’s not that he’s not good looking—he knows he has a nice, lean body with a few muscles here and there, an attractive face and a charming smile. But he’s also mostly a loser, introverted and a bit rusty on the social plan. Yet to everyone’s surprise, he’s got game. Especially when he’s high as fuck. 

The funny part is that anytime his friends (Jongseong and acquaintances) ask who’s the one he’s fucking, he refuses to tell. Some of them start doubting that he’s even fucking anyone but Jongseong knows it’s true. And he’s fucking insufferable in his insistance. 

“I’m your best friend, why would you hide who you’re having sex with from me?” Jongseong had whined, one too many times before. He never really got mad about it, yet Heeseung knows he will have a crisis the moment he finds out who that person is. Heeseung wants to avoid that as much as possible. It’s a miracle Jongseong is still so clueless. Heeseung is pretty sure Sunghoon knows; and that’s a whole other miracle that he hasn’t told his boyfriend yet if Heeseung’s hunch turns out positive.

Heeseung doesn’t think much about it, but his mind does wander to it sometimes while he’s gaming. With his head hazy from having smoked barely fifteen minutes ago, Jongseong and Sunghoon’s prying eyes flash across his mind, making him snort and almost spill half his red bull all over the keyboard.  

The thought of them reminds Heeseung that he’s made a promise that he’d feed Jongseong’s cat while the two of them are visiting Sunghoon’s family for the weekend. 

“Fuck, fuck.” His fingers twitch on the mouse and his mind blanks for a moment. 

So yeah, he’s a functional human being, but he does forget a few things sometimes. Nothing he can’t still do though. 

He startles when he realizes he’s being shot at and his teammates’ yells and chides are blaring through the headphones.

Heeseung tries to concentrate again on the game but he dies in the next one minute and a half. 

He sighs and tells them that he has to leave.

A chorus of You suck and Booo and Suck a dick is the last thing he hears before he puts his headphones down and exits the game. 

It’s Friday night. Heeseung looks at the clock on his phone to see that it’s a bit past midnight. He has to go all the way to Hongdae to feed Jongseong’s cat before the tiny, vicious animal starts destroying her owner’s expensive apartment out of spite. Great.