(colby brock ff?)

a night at a club

‼️...TW SA, SH, alcohol‼️
context : the main character (MC) is at their regular club and is standing alone on the top balcony. they have issues with mental health and SA
(first off look at this photo???!!!) no words needed. 🙇‍♀️🙏
one again i apologise for the format i literally pasted this from notes...not sure what's going on with all the extra spacing, i hope it's not too annoying ✊
also ; CB= Colby Brock (obvi) + MC= main character (given that this is just the planning stage)
- "you look fucking miserable." CB
- "yeah i'm fucking sober that's why."
- "you're not a generally sober person?" CB
- "i try not to be." MC
- "(sigh) yeah i get that." CB
- "right." MC
- silence for a few minutes
- "what's it like then?" CB
- "what?" MC
- "sobriety." he takes a sips of his alcohol bottle and continues to stare ahead
- "(scoffs at odd question) you know it weird. it kinda still feels like i'm high but in a... super-conscious way?" MC
- "isn't that like the whole point of getting loose, though? to take away the consciousness?" CB
- "depends who you ask." MC
- silence.
- "what's your name?" CB
- "what's yours?" MC
- "(sighs) colby brock."
- (he waits for her response in introduction)
- "what's you name?" CB (repeats)
- "that's an interesting question. i hadn't really thought of that part yet." MC
- "let's go with... Jordan."
- (CB obviously confused, he doesn't say anything unconvinced she's sober despite her saying so. he takes a swig of his corona bottle.)
- "you know you came just in time. i was almost considering killing myself but you decided to stand next to me." MC
- CB now concerned but also not knowing if she's being satire
- "(he tries to change the subject) what did you mean by not deciding who you are? you bipolar or something?" CB he chuckles lightly hoping she wasn't so it didn't come across offensive
- "(she smiles) no. i'm like the only regular here. anyone who comes here rarely returns; most people are just visiting and travelling and the rest just don't like it here so they never come back. therefore every time i come here i'm faced with new people and i can change who i am. it's great, i can pretend and be whoever the fuck i wanna be and none of them will ever know." MC
- "well what about me? i know now and i'm not one to forget things when i'm drunk." CB
- "yeah and i'm fucking sober so to be honest with you i have no idea why i told you that. fuck. now i wanna get high so i can pretend i have a filter." MC half joking
- "(chuckles) how long have you been sober for?" CB he asks taking another swig
- "3 days, but the fuck is that? barely a week and i'm contemplating suicide." MC she brought it up again
- "wanna know how i'd do it?" MC
- "no, not really." CB uncomfortable
- "just take a heap of aderall and then get super drunk. that'd work for sure but-" MC
- "i don't really wanna be having this conversation." CB taking another drink
- MC notices his discomfort and kicks herself for her lack of filter
- "sorry. that was insensitive." MC
- "it's cool. you seem like a piece of shit but i wouldn't mind being your friend. might wanna work a little harder on that filter though." CB takes another drink
- "i'm not interested in friends, so sorry but i'll have to respectfully decline." MC
- "fair enough. i know too many people anyways so maybe i should start cutting the numbers." CB he didn't seem like a very self centred person but he looked serious
- "you being for real?" MC
- "yeah. i don't really think i need to explain myself, just know that the more is sometimes a lot less merrier than you'd think. especially when they're all fucking happy and thriving while majority are barely surviving." CB
- "depression." MC one word but so universal
- "mh." CB
- silence for a minute. CB looked at her and she felt from the corner of her eye he didn't look away.
- "shit. you're u actually really fucking beautiful." CB
- MC looked at him eyebrow raised, small unbelievable smirk
- "wanna fuck me?" MC half joking. couldn't argue with the fact that he was pretty hot
- "(pretend he wasn't shocked by her forwardness) sort of. i just don't really know what i'd be getting myself into." CB taking another drink but still looking at her
- "you live alone?" MC
- "(shakes head) no but it's not unusual for my housemates to have random people over every now and then." CB he mildly suggested
- she smiles sweetly with the wildest look in her eyes
- "you have a car?" MC
- (nods) CB
- "well we wouldn't want you driving yourself home, would we? especially since you've been sipping from that shit since God knows when?" MC
- (very small smile but noticeable) CB
- "i'm parked in the basement c'mon." CB

please, please give me feedback on the idea, i'd love to hear it 💕
thank you so much if you got this far, and thank you for bearing with the mistakes and all that bs. lmk with you want more... or if you want less.
thank youuu byeyeeye 👏😍