Forced Love Swadmare

Only choice

TW: This chapter consists of extremely heavy language, and very sensitive topics such as abortion, alcohol, vomiting and violence.

nightmare pov

It was a while after swads strange words, I was now left alone on the couch as swad had left for the day with his brother. I was glad to finally get some time to myself, but I still couldn't leave because of the damn collar. As annoying as it was, it was something I couldn't change.

I would generally ask a gang member for help but that fucking stupid orange turkey took my phone and blocked my magic, so I had no way of communicating. seriously if horror found us he would have cooked this bird for dinner by now. ... just the thought of them hurts.

I remembered about the kid and how I would have to give life to it, but to be honest, I really didn't want to. I wouldn't find it fair for the poor child, swad is way to violent and controlling for a child, and as much as it hurts to say this, I wouldn't be the best parent myself. and besides all of those reasons it would keep me here forever, ruining the slim chance i have to leave.

I could abort it, but then it wouldn't get a chance to live, a chance to feel or see the world. As depressing as it was, it may be the only option. as weird as it sounds for someone as soulless as me, just the thought of this poor kid never getting to see the world and find out so many things.. to make myself a little better, i reminded myself that it was currently only a little soul, and it was barely developed, so it couldnt think, feel and it didnt have a conscious mind.

No one pov:

The more nightmare thought, the more he realized, it was the best thing to do. He got up from the couch and went over to a cabinet, seeing if there was any alcohol, drugs, or anything that if he took enough of, would kill the child. He eventually found some alcohol, and just decided to use that. swad had heaps of strong alcohol hidden in a cabinet nightmare used a chair to see, as he was a heavy drinker when he had parties or an event, and also because often with his magic, the alcohol is weaker to him then it actually is.

He opened the bottle and chugged it down, finishing it within a few minutes with a couple of breaks inbetween due to the strength. He sighed as he threw the bottle away, covering it with other trash to hide the evidence. He realized he was due to the strength he was going to get extremely drunk from this in a very short amount of time, so he was glad swad wouldnt be home until really late at night when he nightmare would be asleep and most likely too passed out to even wake up.

             Time skip an hour or so              

No one pov:

Nightmare was feeling the effects of the alcohol now, being drunk out of his mind and sitting down on the bed in their shared room. he felt super nauseous, and couldnt stand up at all even if he tried. the room spun around him as he sat there questioning his decision. he had his arms desperately clung to the bedsheets, the taste of vomit fresh in his mouth. it felt like agony as he just sat there, praying for the over consumption of alcohol to knock him out. eventually, his wishes came true, and he fell unconscious onto his bed, his body splayed in an uncomfortable  position. he lay there, completely oblivious to the outside world.

unaware to his surroundings, swad walked into the bedroom, finding nightmare on the bed. usually, he would take advantage of this and do some pretty... unholy things, but he was way too exhausted to do so, and too drunk to care about that. so, he lay down next to nightmare and pulled him close, using his bright and unmistakable positive magic to pull the covers over them both. he let out a soft and happy ¨coo¨ noise, nuzzling close to night and holding him close.

the blanket was a fluffy, soft weighted blanket with the print of the moon and the sun in the fluff ontop. swad of course got the print custom made for the both of them, just for him to always know who he ¨belonged¨ to.the two just cuddled together as swad fell asleep, happily holding his darling night, knowing that it was the ¨moon and the sun¨ together now..

(hey, guess who finally updated!! most of this was wrote at school, so ignore the bad quality or writing and the spelling mistakes. ill try and update more, and sorry for not updating my other stories. i might go back to them soon, or well, i hope i will. also sorry for not writing this part in bold, idk how to get bold on the computer-)