It's crazy how much I've fallen for her. The way she thinks is like no one else I've met. I feel the butterflies in my stomach even when I wake up. It's clear she has me in this trance. How could I not be? Apart of me feels like everything about her is too good to be true, even if she gave me warnings.. they don't scare me. She told me how she can be crazy, but that doesn't worry me. Apart of me knows that I'll be able to handle it. I'm willing to grow with her, even if she thinks she might hurt or push me away. The intellectual conversations we have feeds me dopamine. Ignoring the time, lost in the words that we share. I haven't clicked this quickly with someone like this, especially so fast and when we haven't even met. I feel the day dreams overwhelm me as I fantasize about the day she actually gives me a chance. I would travel there in a heartbeat to take her out on cute dates and show her what she deserves. Her toxicity and word play excites me, feeling like a high school kid again as the butterflies fill my stomach. It's it too good to be true? I write here to express myself where no one can judge or know. Would she ever find this? I don't believe so, which makes it that much better that I can say how I feel even if it's so soon. She's shared her thoughts and feelings with me. The more I know her, the more I am attracted. I'm going to break the cycle of shitty guys that she may have been with. I love how she calls me a sweet talker, even though it's just how I naturally feel.
