Limerence

<Chapter~1>

Noor's pov:

I wake in the morning after sleeping in an uncomfortable position last night. My grades just dropped for some reason and before my parents ask about it I wanted them to be the same as before.

Let's just say that my parents won't be happy when they find out. The only thing they did that I am grateful of is that they sent me to college which was away from home.

Atleast I didn't had to be so mentally and physically tortured here.

It was not just my parents who have hurted me ,no, I lived in a joint family that too full of conservative persons and it ruined my life.

I am not talking about how I couldn't go out with boys or hang out late at night ,not even complaining that I couldn't drink there,because these are not the things that mattered. It was something that haunts me everyday and it will torment me till the day I die.

I wasn't safe there.

I considered taking my life but just *miraculously* someone saved me.

The doorbell rang and I flinched, getting out my musings, I decided to open the door only to bring a smile on exhausted face because it were the art supplies that I ordered online.

I am scared to be alone when u don't do anything, my mind travels back to all the awful memories that make me cry every night. So sketching ,painting or singing are my escape. I was a good dancer once but now I have lost that spark in me to dance I can't bring myself to dance because it gives me happiness. And I don't deserve it. I admit that I am not that typical girl who would sacrifice herself for others. Maybe I was like that before but not now.

I am someone who is jealous, someone who is greedy, someone who has a very strong hatred towards some people and I am someone who ,sometimes is rude.

I am filled with suppressed anger and aggression from so many years,but I can't show it ,thanks to my parents who made me an extreme people pleaser.

My mind is dangerous and I am scared of it. Not wanting to think about these things anymore, I decided to cook something for me and later on I will paint something.
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<Limerence> ; First chapter.
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