Please Believe Me

Part 1

"Jun slide to the left more!" I am. "Jun make sure your arm goes up all the way!" It is. "Jun don't go too fast or you will bump into someone!" I'm trying. "Stop the music!" Of course.

Hoshi was pissed to say the least. We have had schedules all day back to back and not even an hour ago they changed up his choreo. It apparently was too provocative for a group dance and needed to be for the unit dances. Anyway, he taught us all the new choreo and most everyone picked it up fairly fast, except me. I usually get it down pat in a matter of minutes, but today I just felt off. It had to be today.

"You always pick up the choreo, so why can't you pick up a simple change?!" He stormed up to me, waving his hands clearly letting out his anger. I obviously felt bad for messing up so much, but I was doing my best. "I'm sorry I'll try harder." I lowered my head hoping he would let me off just this once so we could continue. "Hoshi that's enough." Seungcheol stepped forward to calm down the situation. "It's been a long day and we are all tired, so let's not take it out on each other."

I lifted my head up and watched everyone separate. "We're gonna meet back here in 10 to continue." Hoshi said before patting my shoulder. I knew that was his way of saying he was sorry, so I smiled and went over to grab my water.

"Are you good?" Minghao came up to me as I searched through my bag. "Uhm yeah today has just been rough. I won't cause any more problems." He frowned. "You're not causing problems. You know hyung just gets sensitive with last minute changes." I finally found my water and looked up at him. "I know. It's okay." "Minghao-hyung I need help!" He turned at the sound of the maknae and rolled his eyes. "I'll be back." I nodded and sat down taking a sip of my water.

Hmm. This tastes a bit weird. Is it out of date? Does water even go out of date? Maybe I'm just overthinking this. I shrugged it off and took a few more sips, beforeing setting it down and putting it back in my bag. Once I stood up I felt a small wave of dizziness rush over me and stumbled back down onto the floor. My vision didn't seem to worsen. I guess I just stood up too fast.

"Alright guys let's go!" Seungcheol clapped and everyone went to their positions. I slowly stood up to make sure I didn't get dizzy again and walked over to my spot. "We're only going to do this a couple more times so let's make sure we make it perfect!" Everyone agreed and the music started playing.

It was all okay until the dizziness washed over me again and I stumbled just a bit, but I was in the back so maybe no one noticed. I got back on track and went up to the center for my part when my vision started to blur and I suddenly felt a bit nauseous. Right as my part started I fell to the floor grabbing my stomach and regained my vision when I heard the music cut off and an assortment of yells.

"Jun! What's wrong?" "Are you hurt?" "What's wrong?" I felt arms wrap around me and I pushed them back trying to regain my composure after the nausea passed. "I'm okay." "Jun?" Jeonghan questioned as he looked at me with worry in his eyes. I just smiled and tried to assure him I was okay. "Hyung, why don't you sit out until we're done?" Dino piped up. "No it's okay I promise. If I don't feel well again I'll sit out, but I'm okay right now." Seunghceol stepped forward. I put my hands out. "Please hyung I need to get this choreography down." He sighed and nodded.

We started up again, but this time I couldn't even make it from the first verse. I felt like I was going to vomit so I threw my hand over my mouth and ran out of the room to the nearest bathroom. I slammed open the stall door and let everything out. I hadn't eaten much that day so it was pretty much the little bits of liquid I drank and a bunch of dry heaving that wasn't very pleasant. My hands were on both sides of the toilet when they were suddenly being taken off and my body was spun around slowly. My body was finished, at least I think, and I fell forward into someone. I honestly didn't care at that point.