my life in side myself

August 14 2023

Ha lol it's been a while ... ALOT has happened since u last made an entry in here 🤔  so let's see ..... I talked about my "friend" kai and how much I "loved" her well it turns out she's a fucking crazy ass lying nasty ass anti vaxer !!! Ugggghhhhh no wonder why my daughter Kathleen now 6 *crys* would get sick any time she was around her plague baby *gags* my other besty bree stopped talking to me n stopped caring 😭 she went throw he'll n back so I don't like to bother her .... giving her space .....  so anyways let's go on with what's new with me ..... I had a 2nd kid my pandemic baby my miniature psyco patch haha baby Jr lucifer 2nd in command in the under world ...... she's 2.5 now God I love her but omg !!! She's a pisser 😭😆 she don't take shit from anyone even beats up Kathleen lmao I do yell at her to stop and tell Kathleen she needs to be more assertive with her sister and to not let her bully her ... I'm wrking with rose to not be a bully .... she even bullys me and Brian lmao 🤣 I love the kid to death but omg she's gonna be the one to push me to drink 😕 hmmm what eles ..... I'm no longer at the bus company w the wombat cunt boss..... ugh 😒 ya I quit when they tried to say I was abusing the kids naaa fuck that shit I would never my ex driver ya well he did I wasn't on the bus when it happend but he zipped tied an autistic child's hands together bc he was hitting the window😡🤬 so they had to get ride of everyone on the bus ..... sighs oh well I'm between jobs and likely can never wrk with kids again bc of a new situation which I'll get to later ..... me and an old best friend reconnected her 2 daughters are best friends w my 2 daughters I love her kids like mine and I love her so much she's more then my best friend she's like my sister 💓 💖 idk what I'd do without her !!!!  So more new info on me I found out I have more mental health problems yay me 🙄🙄 I now have anxiety depression ptsd pmdd bpd and now on top of that I have a new health prob pots !! Woot woot 🙌  ugh at least now I know that me being dizzy any time I sit or and get random dizzy spells that it's NOT normal 👎 smh ..... so ya idk im.only writing bc my therapist told me I had to do somthing to unwind like read and I re downloaded this app to find books to read then I found My old journal 🙃 and decided maybe of I write down my thoughts it would help me ?? ((Shrugs)) ok well let's continue shall we ahhh hello adhd 🤣 so any ways back to me issues so with this issues I decided tonapply for ssdi snap/ebt dss and other public assistance so I'm getting help with someone throw my mental health place she's supposed "help" me but you know what sh3 did KNOWING I have mental health problems!!! She fucking called cps on me !!! And I do not trust then bc of all the story's u hear of them taking them from good homes putting them into abusive homes and not taking the kids in a abusive homes out  so any ways the claim from cps was my house is a hazard and my kids are neglected bc they are dirty tf !! Umm my kids play in the dirt all the time and love to get filftly 🤦🏽‍♀️ the times of day she came by was after they have played all day in the yard ughhhhhhh!!!!!! So now I have cpfs up my ass thank god the lady we got is so sweet and totally understands yay !! But it never seems to fail for me any time somthing good happens something bad happens to me ..... so the good befor the bad .... i got a letter in the mail saying I had to use the funds on my ebt by Sept 13 .... uhhh what ???? This was from back in 2019 I was DENIED  back then so I had 0 idea I had any funds!!! We been getting food from pantrys !! So my children can eat and I found out I had like 900 in funds so we went shopping and filled the house we so much food 😭🙏🙌 then the cps thing happend legit the next after we went shopping !!! So.any ways that's all for now