Him and I against the world

8

It been a while, I'm finally off bed rest. Thank you baby Jesus I could not do that shit nomo!

Tonight was the night of the carnival though. Ash told me I shouldn't go so I automatically am going. So I got ready.

I put my hair in a clip and put on mascara and lipgloss. Maddy was outside so we went to the fair!!

Time skip
We got to the fair and we're walking around. It was fun I don't know why ash didn't want me to go. We went on a roller coaster and than when we got off. I lost my shit, ashtray was with this fucking whore? She was blonde her hair looked fried her lips looked like it couldn't hold much more lip filler.

She's really ugly, she's wearing booty shorts and a tube top. I say "what the fuck." Maddy says "no way that's ashtray." I say "it is." Maddy says "this stupid fucker." Than storms over towards him. I was so fucking mad.

I followed her, she pushes his chest and says "hey dick head." Than slaps him as soon as he look at her. He said "what the fuck Maddy!" I say "don't what the fuck her! This is why u didn't want me to come huh?" He says "shit b!?" I say "fuck u." As I walk away. He said "b!"

But I didn't give him the time of day. I didn't even know he was coming to the fair! He didn't want me to come so he didn't tell me psh. Fuck him, yk all I ever did was love him! This is what I fucking get!? FUCK HIM FR!

I went home and changed

I took my makeup off and my hair out of my clip. I brushed my hair and put it up in a bun, I put in my glasses after taking out my contacts. I than grabbed a book and sat in bed and read it.

I heard a knock on my door. I say "yes?" Miguel opens my door and says "hey um Bells." Scared.

I say "what's up" setting my book on my lap. He says "you have a guest." He pushes the door a bit further and ash walks in. I sigh and says "Miguel!" He says " be a big girl once okay?"

Man was I pissed!!! Because what the fuck? He says "b." I say "what ashtray!? What could u possibly want! U tell me not to go to the fair so u can bring some janky whore?" He sighs, looking cocky.

He says "you mean the hoe fez invited to be our roommate? You mean the one I was paid to hang out with because how much I hate her? You mean that janky whore?" I chuckle than says "I guess."

He says "b I wouldn't do that to u." He walks closer to me. He puts his hand on the side of my face and says "never." I smile and puts my hand on his. I say "I'm sorry really."

He smiles and says "your okay ma." Moving his hands to my waist. I say "u sure?" wrapping my arms around his neck. He says "yes ma." Kissing my cheek.

I say "u look good." He says "look at u? That's top... is a little to small. You know? To contain myself." I push myself away and says "your a freak!" He chuckles. But than as he examines me sighs.

He pulls me close running his fingers over my scar. I say "shit I'm sorry." And walks into my closet grabbing a shirt. I say "I'm just used to it."

He sighs and says "I should have stopped it b, if I didn't piss u off." I say "no! Hey hey" cupping his face. I say "I'm okay now. Ash babe I'm okay." He says "I feel bad." I hug him and says "don't please?" He says "I try b."

I say "it's not your fault ashtray! Listen to me please." He sighs and says "I need to go." And quickly leaves. I run after him and says "ashtray wth!"

He keeps walking I say "ever since the shooting it's like it hurts to touch me! Ashtray if anything your hurting me more than the actual shooting." He says "u don't ever understand b!" I say "WHAT WHAT DONT I?"

I say "I don't understand u don't like me anymore? Oh cause I understand." And goes and walks away.

I was tired of the fighting. I needed answer but ash... don't give me any. So I had to go to his brother.

Time skip.
It was the next day and I reached out to fez.

Me
Hey fez, it's Isabel. Wondering wya and if ash's with u? Need to talk.

Fez
Hey Isabel I'm at home, no ash's at the shop come on over.

Me
I'll be over in a few.

I changed into shorts and a hoodie with my glasses and the same bun I fell asleep in. I walked over there with and hour of sleep in me.

I got there and knocked and fez opened the door he said "come in." I came in and sat on the couch. He said "what's up? Why u not want ash here?" I say "I need answers ash won't answer"

He sighs and says "I don't know man." I say "why won't he look at me like normal since the shooting." He says "because Bella, he's hurting he could protect you. Ash has this fear ever since his grandma died of a shooting. If he feels he didn't do enough he slowly pushes away." I sigh and says "fuck me!"

Fez says "reach out, don't give him the satisfaction of shutting you out. Make it so he can't, I sigh.

Ash walks in and looks at me than walks back to his room. Fez says "stop ashtray." So he does and walks back over to us. He looked down ashamed.

He says "u can't shut her out. What happened to grandma is in the past. Quit shutting people out ight? Talk!" And he smacks the back his head as he walks out the house. Ash sits on the couch.