Unrequited return

Ignite back

July 31st 1993
Hungry. Hungry food. Must eat.
No, dont eat. Not yet, so close.
His canine survivable instinct and his human not so rational thoughts were fighting to take over his body. He couldn't lose it, not now, not when he is so close to escaping.
Fudge came in today, and gave him a newspaper, that's how he found out the rat is alive, and ever since then he couldn't keep the thought of it escaping his mind and decided right then and there to kill him. It was like something inside him lit, it was not joy ...but it was warm he hasn't. Felt warmth for so long...

He is at Hogwarts, dont sleep you can't fall asleep he will get Harry...
His head and eyelids felt heavy from sleep deprivation, but he tried his hardest to not fall asleep waiting for the dementors to bring him his food, his head kept jerking up in an attempt to stay awake
"This is all your fault, Sirius."
"How did we ever trust you, you're so selfish"
"Of course, he is a Black after all, just like the rest of his family"
The dead bodies of his friends were saying, staring at him with the coldest eyes
"No! I'm sorry I'm so sorry I will make it up! He is at Hogwarts, he is at Hogwarts im sorry, I'm sorry James"

Creek
He jerked up feeling his cell getting colder and colder
Okay, this is your only chance to do it
He turned into a dog and walked right past th dementors, exiting his cell
I did it!
He had one thing on his mind now get to Harry somehow
As he was walking down the stairs he smelled a familiar scent and stopped. family. It was ... Bellatrix? She looked crazier than ever and Padfoot barked at her cell before continuing his way down the stairs. It wasn't hard, there are only dementors around, however, it was hard for his weak legs not used to walking anymore.
It still felt cold and joyless, but differently from before it wasn't as unpleasant anymore.

He reached the beach of the island but wouldn't risk turning back into a human when is still swarmed by dementors. Plus he liked it as a dog more anyways.

He unintentionally jerked back when his paw touched the cold water, feeling a breeze for the first time in god knows how long - he did know today, it had been 12 years- it was amazing getting fresh air, his human brain tried to get him to start swimming but the canine in him was so excited to be out again his tail wouldn't stop wagging.
When he finally got into the water he swam and swam and swam with his head flooding with ideas, some he hadn't had in years
Who is Harry going to look like more? Does he know about Sirius/ oh he is going to see Harry again, wonder how is he living, and what happened to Remus? Remus, Remus, Remus Remus remusremusremmusrem-No stop thinking about Remus you have to find the rat kill him or no find Harry first
Yea, find Harry first explain to him tell him you did not betray his father, then kill Peter. But...Remus, Remus he has to know, I have to tell Remus, I miss Remus, Remus

By the time he reached land again the sun was out it was midday and he was exhausted and hungry and sleepy he didn't even know where he is, but it doesn't matter as long as he is near Harry, he can rest now maybe just for a little.