Him

I feel Grateful. Oh so grateful that I might just burst into tears.

I have been crying a lot lately. I have been getting angry a lot. I do have issues and I do need to heal. Normally I would have taken the initiative to stay single and work on myself.

But he is just too precious.

I know I do have abundance in my life. I do know there is a lot more time and a lot more people. Yet, something tells me he isn't a person I should lose.

Literally built differently. 

He is taught how to do business since the time other kids would watch Chotta Bheem (Including me). He is brought up in an environment full of love and understanding. His family is built by love marriages after years of serious dating. He knows his weakness, his faults, he accepts them, talks to me openly about them, and improves.

He makes me better. He adds value. True precious value and happiness. He fulfills my need for love, attention and emotional support. He provides, understands. 

He makes me laugh.

He makes me cry.

He. Makes. Me. Better.

For the first time, He is a choice. My choice.

I choose him. I choose his smile. I choose his personality. I choose his face. I choose his secrets. I choose his weakness. I choose his strengths. I choose, I choose. You name it, I choose, Everything about him individually, together.

I feel safe. I feel wanted. I feel loved.

I have faith in him.

I want to give him more than he gives me I really do. I want to.

I want to get rich with him. Its almost like I want to get rich for him. Maybe Mamma Liz wouldn't want me to. But Liz, this feels pure. It feels true. He seems pure too. I don't feel scared to give my all to him because I know he gives me his all too. He gives me just as much I would want my dream boyfriend to. 

When I think of my 20-year-old self, and if she would approve of him, 
of course she will. Hot women love their husbands. Or so I say.

Thank you, Universe. For sending him to me. He is your creation. YOU literally CREATED him. You meant for us to have experiences together. You really did that for me.
You love me so much.

So irrespective of the future, I join my hands, bow my head and feel humble and blessed in your loving embrace. 

I feel Grateful. Oh so grateful that I might just burst into tears.

Why heal alone when we can heal together? For each other and with each other.
He is my companion on the road to my best life and he is the fuel to the drive towards there. He is the provider of aspiration and even the destination seems bland if it is not my future life with him.

The credit of my happiness goes to him.

Of course I am whole in myself. I can provide for myself, make myself happy, buy myself whatever I desire. Yes, I will not be incomplete without him.

But I was always taught to appreciate blessings.
He is a blessing in my life. He doesn't replace the worth I have for myself but he adds to it.

I become double the woman I am when I have a man like him by my side.