i'm scared, scared like i've never been
of what you may ask
i don't know...
anything.
everything.
nothing?
its an out of body experience
i'm out of control
my hands are shaking
i'm shaking
and then suddenly the world starts spinning
my vision blurry
why? just why me?
can't breath, don't even want to breath
fear, fear like i've never felt
taking over my body
consuming my thoughts
the split change in enthusiasm to pessimism is devastating
The feeling off falling right before the crash
The fear, before the numbness takes over
Before the inevitable happens
Before the crash that leaves nothing but broken bones
broken...
that's how I feel
like there isn't any way back
back to how it used be
but that isn't true
in a couple of minutes i'll be fine again
i'll be me again
and i'll find everything amusing, again
but right now there is no light
nothing amusing in what's happening
but in a couple of minutes
when i'm me again
it will be
