Okay so the worst part about being in love with your best friend is that your limited. Okay I can't hug him I can't kiss his cheek, I can't put my head on his shoulder, I can't joke about sex without you know getting all dirty minded, I can't hold his hand, but the most worst is you have to keep a secret, and you can't look them in the eye. It's like this because well I'm in love with Uriah. So now we don't even eat together. Lynn has been distant around me.
Maybe it was meant to be like this. I mean we kinda just drifted apart were in the second stage of iniation and well the simulations have gotten to us. Well it's gotten to everyone except Uriah I mean he comes out of his simulation smiling like does he even have fears. The first stage was easy for dauntless born but nobody was even simi prepared for the fear landscape. Sure it's not real but at the exact same time it is real I hate how I know it's not real but I just can't because I can't handle all 12 of my fears. Well my last one is the worst. Uriah and Lynn are hanging off the chasm and the railing is burning and I can only save one, I keep going back and forth with saving them the first time I saved Lynn. Then Uriah and tomorrow is the last day of training then we're done for good thank God. I close my eyes and fall asleep. When I open my eyes I'm not in my bed I'm on the floor of the chasm. I look up to see to people hanging from the cliff. They're screaming for my help I scream at the sight I run faster than I knew I could run. When I reach the top I look between Uriah and Lynn. I run to Lynn snd as I pull her we both fall into icy flames. I scream until my scream are muffled.
My eyes pop open and I see Uriah's hands on my shoulders I'm covered in sweat my entire body is heat just heat.
"Are you okay" he says.
"Ugh yeah I ugh guess" I stutter because we haven't spoken in months. He's looking me dead in the eyes.
"Wanna talk about it" he asks I do want to but I don't have the guts.
"No it's fine" I lie.
"Okay" he says and lays next to me in my bed looking at the ceiling.
"What are doing"
"You wanna talk about it don't you" he smirks, I forgot he knows me better than I know myself.
"Ya" I sigh.
"What happened" he says.
I begin to cry at the memory.
"Ishchxnkbgn " I try to put together the words but I can't it hurts.
"Sh I'm here it's okay" he coos snugging me up in his chest. I'm so glad it will be over tomorrow.
"It it hurts" I cry.
"Hey guess what" he says.
"What" I pout whiping my watered cheeks.
"11:11 make a wish" he smirks.
"Uriah" I say annoyed.
"Marlene" he mocks. We did this as kids.
"Fine" I close my eyes and wish for him.
"What'd you wish for" he says.
"If I tell you it won't come true" I say like a little kid.
"Well if you never tell me I'll never tell you" he wiggles his eyebrows.
"What do mean" I say.
"You know what I mean" he whispers resting his forehead with mine.
" K" I say
"What'd you wish for Marlene" he repeats
"What'd you wish for Uriah" I tease.
"You really wanna know" he says I nod my head and he cups my face in his warm hands and he kisses me.It's really slow and controlled.
