Can I really be perfect?

✰maybe I should try it chapter 2✰

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And I know I'm never going to get my journal back. I went into the bathroom and closed the door. I sat down on the floor and took out my pocket knife and looked at it debating if this shit is a good idea. Fuck. It.  I cut my wrist and oh fuck...if felt good like I love it. I love pain, I made like 3 more cuts and cleaned up my cuts and got up. Yeah I knew it was wrong but that was what made it feel right.

I got out of the bathroom and I sat in the classroom and it's boring. Why don't I practice dancing? I swear if anyone sees this I'm killing myself. I got up and started practicing and if I'm honest I don't want to dance anymore it's not fun anymore.

" Bakugo?" I heard a soft voice said, I nearly fell " What?" I turned back to face this mystery person and it was none other than the beautiful Todoroki. " What you're doing here Icyhot?" I asked fixing myself up" I didn't know the famous Bakugo can dance""and no one will know" I threatened" Bakugo? " he said" yeah, your arm little drops of blood is dripping" he said and then myy eyes widen went to my bag and took care of my arms" Bakugo what's going on?" he asked " Nothing to worry about" I replied I was panicking I knew I should of made a damn plan before cutting my fucking wrist.

" Are you ok?" He asked me, " Icyhot, why are you even here?"" um I came here because I saw you didn't eat lunch and you were nowhere to be seen so I wanted to see if you were ok? And I was curious" he explained." Well you found me, you can go"I said " Bakug-" just as he was saying that the bell rings and people should be returning from lunch.

I sat down in my seat and ignored the shit out of him. I may like him but don't have a chance with him so why bother. I'm just tired of everything but I have training and dance practice yay.

After school -
I walked to my dance studio because it was not that far away from the UA. When I got there I saw my dance teacher and they are literally the definition of pathetic but I'm going to shut up. I went inside then headed for the changing rooms and damn I knew I was fat but not this fat and I have so many scars on my stomach because of Mrs. Mitsuki. She tried to cut my stomach to get rid of the fat and sadly it didn't work because my dad came in and stopped it. My dad is a worker. He works so hard and works with big deals but barely be home and he really kinda just stands by and watches me get treated like shit.

I got out of the changing room and got on my black  tank top and gray sweatpants and I totally forgot I had the bandages.. Meh, who cares. I did my routine and whenever I dance I get this rush like I know what I'm doing but when I'm getting forced to do it's like I lose that passion. " Bakugo! You were supposed to move your feet and then the cross but you did the opposite!!" my dance coach yelled. I rolled my eyes and redid the move. 
" Don't roll your eyes and just do what I tell you" they said " Oh shut up I just did what you said" I yelled. I did the rest of my dance lesson and left shortly and went to a training grounds to train.

I threw a few explosions. I did my thing but I heard someone say my name well in an annoying way " Kacchan, what are you doing here? Don't you have dance lessons?" he asked " I finished earlier and so I went to the training grounds, aren't you going to get ready for the sleep over" I asked " oh um me and Todoroki was going to train requick before getting ready to go to the sleep over, are you coming?" he asked" of course I am" I said.

I saw him and Todoroki walking over to a spot and started doing their thing. I felt a little jealous but I don't know why he was straight and so was Deku and wouldn't do anything right? I got an incoming call from Mrs. Mitsuki " Hello, is there something you need?" I asked, " Yeah Brat, I need you to come now!" she yelled and that can't be good. Fuck I'm shaking... STOP BODY STOP!!! ... At least not in front of them. I got my shit and left in a hurry. I heard Deku call out but I didn't have time. I was so close to my house... I made it. I walk in and she throws a whole fucking knife at my head. I swear I moved in the right moment but I kinda did wish it hit me tho.