FIRE AND SILK

MEMORIES

I slowly walked into my old room. My legs finally gave in, and I slipped down on the floor in anguish. Minutes turned into seconds and then hours. The darkness in the room was growing thicker and thicker. I stared at the ceiling blankly and he closed his eyes painfully. How did my life end up in this mess?

For the first time in four years, I felt at home. Being in the same space as Clay Wuyan had this kind of feeling. Taking out my phone I called my assistant Ram Su Cheng.

The phone rang once and "Yes sir" came the response at the other end of the phone.

"What is the update? Has that bastard Zira Zhen made any movement?" I asked.

"No Sir, everything is the same. It's too quiet. Zira Zhen has been inside his villa since yesterday. No one knows you are in Beijing unless he is already watching Clay Wuyan's condo sir. I would advise you to stay clear of the condo for now" Ram responded.

I cursed and said, "That is going to be a little bit hard since am already back in the condo."

I knew the moment Ram must have been cursing. I had exposed myself without consulting with him. "Keep me updated" I ended the call with the last command.

Sighing I walked over to the bed and lay down. Clay Wuyan was the only one able to make him feel at peace. But it had been too difficult. To love a person whom, he couldn't touch and let them see what you felt for them. I closed my eyes and shut the world away.

If Clay Wuyan knew what I had been up to for the past four years, he would not approve. I curled myself on the bed, closed my eyes and sleep took over.

Into the hours of the night, my phone buzzed and startled me from my sleep. It was a message from Ram" Sir, Clay Wuyan is engaged to Kate Meifeng. She is a billionaire fashion designer who inherited the business from her grandfather. They have been dating for a year "

"Shit"

After reading the message over and over, sleep eluded me. I got out of bed and walked out of the room. My feet slowly reached Clay Wuyan's room and I stood there listening in. No sound came from the other side, and I assumed that he was asleep.

I walked over to the fridge and took out two cans of beer and then rushed back to his room. Standby the large condo windows as he stared into the night deep in thought.

My thoughts took him back to four years ago when I had noticed the change in Clay Wuyan after they had moved into the condo. He kept ignoring me and this irritated me day by day. Being pushed into a corner a week later, I arrived home earlier to wait for Clay Wuyan and end this madness. But when Clay Wuyan arrived, he ignored me, again and entered his room. No Matter how much I yelled and called Clay Wuyan banging on his bedroom door, he did not respond.

I remembered staying up all night, trying to figure out what wrong I had done to make Clay Wuyan this angry. I had even promised that if I found out what it was, I would apologize and make amendments never to repeat the same mistake. Fear raced in his lonely heart. He knew Clay Wuyan would hate it more if he discovered the feelings he kept hidden for years. The next day, when I returned from an evening walk, I found Clay Wuyan had made dinner.

"Gege, I made dinner" Clay Wuyan stated.

"I see" I responded as I walked over to wash his hands.

They sat down and he served his plate. They ate in silence and then Clay Wuyan stood up and picked the plates and cleared the table. I remained seated as I slowly sipped wine. A few minutes later, Clay Wuyan sat down, picked up his wine glass, sipping it slowly.

Liam Wu stared at him and then stated " There is something that I have been meaning to tell you"

I nodded in encouragement. Finally, Clay Wuyan would tell him what was bothering him. "I have been waiting for you to come back to your senses. Why have you been avoiding me?"

He stood up and walked over to where I was seated and then lowered his head and kissed him. To say I was shocked was the least of my concern. My body trembled and my cock hardened. I had never felt such an ache and burning.

I stood up and yelled at Clay Wuyan "What the fuck do you think you are doing?" The truth was that I was angry. Angry at having such a reaction.

Clay Wuyan had breathed heavily and then the words came out "Gege, we are not blood brothers. I already saw the adoption documents when papa and Mama passed away. "

My eyes widened. I had never seen Clay Wuyan like this. Staring at him, I noticed the change in expression, the way his eyes lingered on my lips, the passion and fire in them took my breath away for a second.

I averted my gaze and gulped down all the wine in his glass. His eyes looked everywhere but where Clay Wuyan was standing panting. His breath hitched and he felt like he was being suffocated.

"Didi, are you in your senses? "I laughed awkwardly using Clay Wuyan's childhood nickname.

"I am not crazy Gege. And you know it" Clay pressed on.

My body burned and the way Clay Wuyan was looking at him, he knew that this was the bare truth. Of course, I knew he was adopted. Papa and Mama told me the news when he was ten years old, and Mama became pregnant with Clay Wuyan. But how could I betray them by having such desires?

"Regardless of that fact, our parents raised us. What the hell is wrong with you?" The words were harsh. Clay Wuyan looked away. Hiding the hurt look in his eyes.

I walked to the room and packed a few clothes. I needed to be far away from Clay Wuyan for now.

"I will be gone for a few days. When I come back I hope you will be back into your senses Didi" I stated as I left the condo.