Anything Goes

Not Again

I heard someone calling my name. I was going back to conciousness, my eyes slowly opening. The sunlight was so intense that it was hard for my eyes to open up. I was laying in my bed, as if nothing happened. Was it a dream after all ? I don't think so. I know him.

Millie was standing next to me. It was time to go to school. First day as a senior. Everything had to be perfect this day, but my thoughts were still stuck on what happened last night. Our eyes were locked, as if we were reading each other's thoughts. Millie's eyes were reddish, she spent the whole night crying. I didn't know what to say. It was because of me. Everything happened because of me.

I knew his secret from the start, but I believed in him, I believed he could change. He said so. But after yesterday's trauma, I didn't know how to deal with the situation. Maybe I should try to forget. It's a closed chapter in my life. There was no way back.

We walked to school in silence. Entering the classroom, I saw HIM. How could that even happen ? I lost my breath, I lost words. He was still alive. Matteo was still alive. He was sitting second row. Then why did she say he's gonna die ?

" Miss Smith take a seat please, we're starting our first lesson in a few seconds "

The teacher put his laptop on his desk and started introducing us to today's topic. I took a seat in the back and my eyes couldn't help but stare at him. What should I do now ? Our relationship has never been linear, we've had multiple ups and downs. It was a scary adventure, I knew it from the beginning. Well not really. He told me everything on our first date. He had some paranormal things. He can become invisible when he wants to. It was okay at first. But the real deal is when he gets angry. His ghost shows up. The demon in him. I was scared and it took me time to get the whole situation, it was weird. Our love was even weirder. It was mixed: love, fear, anger and passion. What more ? Since the day I knew it, my biggest fear has simply been his inner demon. I was dreading the moment he's gonna show up. Till he did. Last night.

" Miss Smith can you give me a detailed comparison between drama and tragedy? "

Everyone turned to stare at me. Even him. He was staring at me so intensely.

- Miss Smith looks like you're not interested in today's topic.

- I'm sorry Sir, I'm a bit tired.

The last 30 minutes of class went fast. The school bell started ringing. I hurried out. I didn't want to talk with him. I needed time. I sat on a bench, my head leaning against the wall. I felt his presence. Someone sat next to me. It was him. Matteo Johanson. A tear run on my cheek. He wiped it away with his finger. His touch gave me chills.

- What happened Ela ? Why are you acting so weird today?

I opened my eyes and turned my head to face him. Our eyes locked and I couldn't say a single word. His eyes filled my mind. Those ocean eyes that mesmerize me everytime. It looks like they're telling you a whole story. His life story. But what did he mean by what happened. Doesn't he know what happened? My brain is just not braining at the moment.

- Are you trying to tell me that you don't know what happened last night ?

- What are you talking about ?

Oh God ! Am I getting crazy? Was I hallucinating ? Was it a dream ? Well a nightmare.

I need to speak to Millie. I gotta find her. And without tell him a single word, I left him questioning my attitude. I was running aimlessly hoping I could find her. He tried to follow me, but he was lost in the crowd. I searched for her everywhere: bathrooms, classrooms, friend groups. But she was nowhere. I call her multiple times but her phone was off. Is she okay ? I hope so.

Back to the classroom, we had math. I don't think it is necessary to say I can't focus. After Matteo's questions and Minnie's disappearance, all I'm thinking of is what else is coming? I've had enough.

I mean if what I saw yesterday wasn't real then why did Minnie cry? Maybe she didn't. Then why were her eyes so red. Is there anything else that I don't know?

The math class went slowly. It was boring to be fair. Normally I'm the type to concentrate during such classes but I just can't. Mom was waiting for me outside of school as per usual, but this time they're wasn't Millie. Oh I forgot to tell you that Millie is my old sister, but my bestie too. She knows everything about me, she has all my secrets. She has always been that one person I go to for advice.

As I was walking past Millie's room, I heard someone crying. It was Millie.