LIMERENCE - a short mitsukou story

Chapter one - ordinary or abnormal

 ...4 days left 

    ''It's been a while since we spoke to each other. But I still remember and love you. I'm glad you decided to forget what happened that day, right, Kou? ''

    The light from the rising sun hits my eyes and my pink hair. I couldn't sleep, now I'm watching the sunrise for the second time in a row. Many unwashed mugs are in the sink, but I still won't wash them. The smashed picture frame is still on the floor next to the sofa. Nothing in this house has changed since the incident. But I rather not think about it, makes me feel ill. 

    ''I should probably do my daily chores before I think about sleeping.'' I've been living in my house alone for the past 4 months. I don't go out unless I desperately need something. Maybe it's lonely sometimes but at least I have him. He keeps me entertained. 

    I brew myself tea, I need something in my stomach. It's lemon tea, but I can still feel the mint flavour from the last time I drank it. ''Something about the way you made my tea was different. I can't seem to imitate it perfectly. It's missing something, but it's not the flavour, its the feeling.'' that's cute, am I a poet now? 

    I go up the stairs and into my room. ''hey, I'm sorry that I didn't sleep here tonight.'' I look at my stuffed toys that are neatly lined up on my bed. ''What are you guys looking at? are you judging me?'' they don't answer. ''a bunch of meanies!''  I grin my teeth and sit down. The table is empty and the only thing that's on it is a purple pen, that's almost dried up, and my diary. The diary is really important to me, because of it I can keep track of everything. It's really pretty too, he bought it for me a while back and decorated it with cute stickers his sister made for me, and on the cover is written ''Mitsuba''. His handwriting is pretty ugly though, but at least he tried. Writing in my diary is a part of my chore, it's also my personal favourite. I open up a fresh and clean spread. 

    '' dear diary...'' that's a very basic way to start it, '' my eyes hurt a lot, I should really sleep but I just can't stop thinking about that dumb cutie!'' I bet he is also thinking about me. ''I haven't seen Kou in a while.'' writing his name makes my heart race and my face red. ''I hate to say it, but I'm starting to worry that he doesn't actually want me. Still waiting for him to come back, maybe he is also waiting for me?'' I should really stop thinking negatively! ''Actually tonight I didn't feel well, I tried taking a shower. His face is becoming a bit blurry to me, and I'm starting to forget his laugh. The only thing I remember is how he yelled my name those 4 months ago.'' 

''Don't you understand? If you can't support my dreams then you just have to deal with it.'' He takes a few steps back. ''Kou! wait! We can still change this right? You can chase your dreams with me!'' Silence filled the room. ''shut up, Mitsuba.''

   ''But, I don't have much time.''

''Kou, please! Are you sure about this?'' Mitsuba falls to his knees crying. ''Stop being selfish. If you actually love me then you would let me go.'' 

''I know what he is planning to do tomorrow.'' 

''I do love you!''

''and Im going to see him.''

''prove it then.''