Bullied by Sammy Wilk

Chapter 14

Life is so hard without Matt.

I'm starting to get bullied online a lot now. It sucks. The worse part is that matts death wish was for me not to cut, that's the hardest thing for me.

He only said not to cut. He never said not to end my life.

I miss Sammy so much. He changed though. He is my biggest bully. I guess he realized how stupid I really am.

The worse part about the bullying is that now they bring Matt into it. They know how to hit me my hardest.

I barely talk to Emma anymore. I know we live in the same house but things are different now. She probably realized how pathetic I am like everyone else did.

I know it's stupid that I miss Sam, but he was so perfect to me while I had him.

I haven't left my room for a week now. Thank god I have a bathroom in here. All I want to do is sleep, but I haven't been able to sleep lately. I've been having the same nightmare over and over again. It's of Matt hanging.

I need to go out to buy new clothes. Turns out I lost a lot of weight. Thank god. But I'm still fat.

I drive to the mall to see Sam and his crew. They are all laughing and pointing at me. I rush into Victoria secret and grab some sweats, hoodies, bras, and underwear.

I walk out and they are all around the door.

"Ew it's the whore."

"Please just leave me alone"

"Ew are you anorexic I could break you. Why not give it a try."

"Why would she be anorexic don't you see how fat she is."

"Tell me something I don't know. Just leave me alone."

"No wonder why Matt killed himself, he had you in his life!" Sam said laughing.

That was it I slapped Sam across the face so hard he almost fell back.

I got on my knees and started to cry.

"EVERYONE LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!!!LEAVE ME TO DIE. IM THE REASON MATTS DEAD. JUST LEAVE ME HERE!!!" I screamed while sobbing.

"Kayla I'm sorry. Please don't say that."

"Why are you talking to me Sam? Your way too good to talk to me."

"No I'm not"

"Then why did you talk all of that crap about me?"

"Because I can't be without you."

"That makes no sense"

"I can't talk to you cause you're pissed at me so the only way I can talk to you is if I bully you. I know it's pathetic but I can't live without you. If you don't want me near than I will have to force my way into your life even if it's hurting you"

"Sam"

"Kayla I'm sorry but I love you so fucking much and I can't live without you."

"I love you too sam"

"Then please give me one more chance."

"Fine, Sam I'm going to give you one more chance. Don't fuck it up. You've caused me enough pain."

"I know and I'm so sorry. Thank you so much. God I love you."

"I love you too"

"But Sam how do I know I can trust you?"

"Please just trust me babe I've learned from my mistakes."

"Okay"

Then we walked away together. And for the first time in the last week

I was happy