there's too many emotions coursing through my head and i need to get them out... so here..
I sit alone in my own private hell
Nobody knows, so it feels like they don't care,
I have to keep myself distracted.. i have to
otherwise the bad thoughts take over.
Should i be happy?
I'm starting to learn the guitar, i'm watching my adorable baby sister grow up and although my relationship with her ended, i still have Ali by my side.
On the other hand i want a friend, i want somebody to hug me, to tell me it will be okay. I need someone. Anyone. This loneliness is killing me.
I guess its just me, nobody needs me.
im too awkward and shy...maybe they judge me..they hate me..
maybe..its my fault..
i should just leave this world.
what am i waiting for?