open my heart

MEET

MINHO'S POV

My alarm went off and I opened my eyes. Waking up in my room day by day and feeling worthless, that's something that will probably never change.
I stand up and go to the restroom. When I look in the mirror and see my face, I can just see how I'm getting worse and worse

"YOU DONT DESERVE LOVE"
"REMEMBER, THE ONLY PERSON WHO LOVES YOU, IS ME"
"YOU WILL NEVER FIND SOMEONE LIKE ME"
"TRY IT AND FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL ACTUALLY LOVE YOU. YOU WILL FIND NO ONE"
"YOU SHOULD BE GRATEFUL YOU HAVE ME"

the voices in my head starts to disappear when I hear my sister calling me: "MINHO, COME DOWN HERE! IM NOT GONNA YELL AT YOU AGAIN!!"

when I heard her voice, I calmed down a little. My older sister is the only one who didn't gave up on me. I go down and sit to the table. The first day of school is always the worst one

JISUNG'S POV

when I woke up, I saw my little sister jumping on my bed, waking me up.
That's our little ritual: every first day of school she will jump on my bed and wake me
"ARI OKEY STOP, IM AWAKE"
I laughed and grabbed her, pulling her into hug

this one is more special tho, this is my first day of school in a DIFFERENT school. I had to move with my mom and little sister, cuz my dad found himself a "prettier girl to make appearances with". She's twenty years younger then him, she could be my sister. My dad was an ass for doing this to us. My sister doesn't really get it, we told her that dad sent us on a vacation to his little house, because he was really busy. We don't want a 6 year old little girl to find out her dad just doesn't care about her.

I walk down the stairs, my breakfast already on the table. I wasn't feeling hungry, so I just said hello to my mom, hugged her and told her: "I'm not really hungry tho, I will eat something later, you can give this to Ari."
Ari came down the stairs and I pointed at my breakfast. "Eat it peanut"
I call her peanut, cuz my mom tells me I look like squirrel, so I'm the squirrel and she's my peanut who I want to protect

I go to my room and get changed. I stare at myself and say: "okay, let's do this"

MINHO'S POV:

I walked into the classrooms and sit at my usual spot. No one ever sits on that place, because they know its my spot. People are afraid of me, because they think I'm cold and mean, so they think something will happen to them if they sit on that place. I have no idea where they got this idea from, but here we are.
I just put headphones and ignore everyone, no one will pay attention to me anyway, as I said, they are afraid of me. The bell rang and I just looked at our teacher. She came with a boy into class. I saw he was kind of nervous, so I knew he was new here. I saw him playing with his fingers. There was something interesting about him

JISUNG'S POV:

I stood there and looked at the class. I started to feel really anxious, as I got looked at. The teacher finally said: "guys, we have a new student joining us this year, his name is Han Jisung. please be nice to him." then she turned to me and said: "sit next to Felix, he's the blond guy right there." she showed me where to sit and i went there. As soon as I looked at him, he was smiling at me and his smile felt so comforting and warm. "hi, I'm Felix, nice to meet you" said the blond guy and gave me his hand, still smiling at me. "I'm Jisung, nice to meet you too." I shook his hand and we started to know each other. I know him only a few minutes, but I already know this guy is my safe spot

MINHO'S POV

I saw the new guy sit next to Felix, the sunshine boy. As soon as he sat, Felix welcomed him. He sat and they instantly became friends. As I expected, he's just another guy who will sooner or later get scared of me. Maybe it's for the best

JISUNG'S POV

I started talking with Felix. He told me everything about everyone in this class. "That guy is Jeongin. He's really cute and nice, you could become good friends. Behind him is Seungmin. He's really sarcastic and really good at roasting people, try not to make fun of him, you will regret it." I laughed at his comments about that seungmin guy and he smiled too. he then pointed at two guys who were really muscular. "these guys are Chan and Changbin. They seem mean, but they are really sweet and kind, they also have big cake." I got little confused, then I realized. "oh-"
Felix continued: "that one next to seungmin is hyunjin. He's really kind and loves to paint. He also loves to dance."
I looked at Felix and he had love in his eyes. He was watching that guy as if he was the most beautiful painting on the world. I smirked and looked at the rest of the class. My eyes met one who I didn't heard anything about. "hey Lix, who is that guy?" I asked. "That's Minho, I know nothing about him. He's really cold and doesn't talk to anyone." I looked at that "mean" guy. I got confused, when I saw his eyes. He didn't look mean or cold. He looked just...tired....really tired and exhausted. he looked....sad

he then moved his head and our eyes met. I felt like I could stare in them forever